i don't know why things turned out this way.. this sucks but i don't know what's wrong.. i didn't know what i did in the first place that got you so upset.. please i don't want it to be like this.. for what holds for me in the future, i'm willing to give it all up just to be back with you.. i'm unsure if you know me well enough, to know that i hate doing this.. i'm not someone who hates without reason.. and,.. if i had wanted the whole world to know..i'll quote your name.. but fact is,..i didn't.. at first, i thought it was just a small matter..that's why i told xinni not to worry.. that's why i asked you to go home and think about it.. cos i thought it was a minor problem.. and that it will soon blow away..
but it didn't.. I'M SORRY IF I HAD HURT YOU.. FOR A SIMPLE REASON I COULDN'T UNDERSTAND BEFORE..I'M WILLING TO APOLOGISE IN PUBLIC.. I'M WILLING TO DO THIS.. FOR WHAT I DID,... I SERIOUSLY DON'T HAVE A CLUE..
please forgive me my friend, let's sit down and talk.. whatever i wrote before in this blog of mine, it's just to let off the steam.. of being wrongedly accused..(i'm sure that's something you don't know)..i cried for us..for your info, it hurts me to see us like this.... (you know i don't cry, but the fact that i did,..i'm truly sincere)..you may choose to ignore, you may choose not to believe.. you're free to think i'm shedding crocodile tears for you.. whatever you wish to think, feel free.. i can't stop you.... if that's what you want, then.. what else can i do?..
haix..what kind of shit did i get myself into?? i hate hating people, especially those who are very dear to me..but why did i do that??
perhaps,..i got too frustrated filling in all the blanks myself.. Till now, i am touched to know that i had once made you feel secure by you just having to look at me.. if you were serious about what you said,..i really felt the connection.....
always felt that our characters clash, as none of us would give in.. since as cgirls,..we have fought countlessly..but we made up.. we always do... but,..what happened just recently?? why did it have to change? it's not your fault.. perhaps it's mine..if it's really mine,....
I AM SORRY.
i have always imagine us, waking up each day and looking forward to seeing ecah other without fail..