so yeah, i had to be good and do some work! haha..

funny~

hmm..went home with brina and shirlyn..thanks for sheltering me from the rain..haha..

first paper in two days..scared? well maybe just a little..haha..

kk btw get well soon bah!

hah..

what the heck..

the world is just a stage.... it's just....haix..

UNPREDICTABLE.

my goodness...i still can't believe it man......

*SIGH*

perhaps it's true, that when a life is being brought into this world, someone else will depart not a moment too soon..

it's kind of ............. i don't know how to say this......

just this afternoon, she told me that she was going off to her friend's birthday party or something.. and then..... just, i received a text message.. telling me that another friend of hers DIED? while wakeboarding...like what..the??! huh?? what is this man?.......

is like, life is JUST too...unpredictable...

NO ONE KNOWS what is going to happen in the next second.....

suddenly, this thought triggered a fear in me...

goes to show that one can't be too sure of the future......cause, you don't even know if you'll live to experience it...haix.. LIFE IS JUST,.........

UNPREDICTABLE. yes, UNPREDICTABLE.

hmm..

it's so early in the morning, i know..

next friday, first paper-EL..damn it..duno why, but i seriously feel that this time round, midyear seems to get here so fast..almost unprepared for it..

I FEEL SCARED. i honestly do...

at this moment, the thing that seemed most appropriate for me to do is to regret, reproach, and waste more time thinking..... but now, i won't..

BUT I STILL FEEL SCARED.

i know it's stupid, it's dumb, for me to get all scared even before entering the battlefield.. WHERE IS THE COURAGE? Aren't there any left?......*SIGH*

all this talk about aiming high, working hard, getting back on track, is all wasted on me...why? oh why am i even thinking of giving up? there's still time to try, get up!!!!

i need the strength.

hah.

we don't have that kind of luck.

but we will stay strong.

SMALL, BUT MIGHTY!

hah..

whole day, from first period to the last, we got scolded sia.. actually not really scolding la, like reprimanded? yeah whatever man!

first, ss..got back essay..miracle man, not that it's that fantastic or anything, just surprised that i didn't fail, though quoted the wrong example..in the midst of excitement, the class wasn't really paying attention to ms tay's explanation..the bell just rang but she tried to explain how the marks were given, but then she realised no one was actually paying any attention so she got pissed..just walked out of class, leaving everyone with a big ?

i was like~ huh? blur blur one..decided to run after her...and yeah..............

after recess-english..started the lesson with a..............................zzzz.....solemn.

haix..she didnt have the heart to scold us, cos of late submission of homework, so as a form teacher, she told us to ..................................... you know what i mean...... one part sounded freakingly familiar..true enough, it was partly ss lesson that time.....

then after english, A.maths..didnt do, didn't bring and it was kinda too late to care? so was like~ shivering down there?..haha..a few of us got scolded(YADAYADA...)

so today, keep getting reprimanded by teachers....not good, not good..

guess what, ms tay bought her form class P2 mcdonald's stuff, and we got,........REPRIMANDED..

THANKS ALOT MAN.

zzzzz..

so unfair..

grrr..

as for the MT oral that i sat for today,...zzzz..don't wish to talk about it..those with me just now should have heard my complaints!

so yeah..i'm done.

hmm..

did work, work and lots of ss today..with benji as my guide..(he's good man! though he sounds like ms tay..damn alike man! haha.)

started from scratch.....did the first ever SBQ inference question...wasn't that bad, quite fun actually..a maths was fun too.....tmr there's chem test, the day after that..a maths test..no more failing alright?..i have faith.......

MT oral! ORAL! oral!! haha.. what the crap..realised that i hadn't been conversing in proper malay for like~ so long............no wonder i sounded like angmoh speaking in malay la! haha..zzzzzzzzzz........

had two hmt periods today mah..first period did my first-ever oral practice with my teacher..was damn crap man! my tongue was like~ so.....hardened? too much english bah......haha.. i was stuttering la... damn bu shuang man....my own language, yet like that...zzzz.. so pestered my teacher to test me again the next period..actually she told me to stay back if i want la, but i just made myself comfortable there, so she had no other choice! haha..so had another practice..this time, did justice to myself..thank goodness man! haha..or else sure cant sleep tonight!

just now at bus stop, got this old man sit beside ms tay..he was like,....digging his 'gold mine' ! haaha..so to speak..she said he had snort on his face..she damn observant man! haha..i was laughing like mad when he took the same bus as her....you know when she had that 'disgusted-look'? super funny.....haha..

went bpp..saw jingfang & eldora! so coincidental sia..(if you'd notice, they're the ones who would GREET you everytime they see you...) haha.. damn funny can?

okok..so tmr, going to have chem test..molarity, relative molecular mass? haha..i like.........

hope the day goes well..cos today sure did!

btw thanks benjamin...

kk, i'm gone!

hai..

hadn't been saying the right things..

and words have been slipping out of my tongue and that is so bullshit...........

*SIGH*

*SIGH*

damn, it's so shit!

at this rate, we'll fall out very soon..either by what i say, or out of bore........damn it!

hate it when i do stupid things..feel like shit now............

better go to sleep and everything's gonna be fine tmr...

hope so.

Victory? Success? Glory?

Is that what you think of gaining after a whole year's work of preparation?

well, think again man..

i'm sorry, but, that the reality of life; one can never be sure of success everytime they want something..it's not that easy..and that's life.....

we've been through this like a whole lot of times man..trust me, A WHOLE LOT... so much that we became immune to failures, not that we want it, but..face it......it happens...

band competition today..well maybe ytd...got silver-way far from what they had expected....they broke down, like obviously..kind of heart-breaking man.........but well, things happen..and most of the time, for a reason...

hai, this is not our year guys..though some of you won't be able to take part in it two years after this,..at least you'd be able to have a story to tell yeah?

i know it's hard but,....

hai...

okay.. btw i'm super hyper-active tonight! haha..been laughing the whole day! gone crazy~

(eversince ytd, i told myself that life's unpredictable..whatever time we have, cherish and treat it as if it's your last! )

was sick, fell sick..at midnight......

damn shitz..

eyes like fishball, damn funny....look like E.T. like that! haha..bloody hell la..

anyway, stayed back in school..did ALOT of work..trust me, hadn't felt that sense of satisfaction, god knows man...

haha..kind of fun la actually..the passion has been re-ignited.......(but at the expense of someone else :x)

hmm..........feeling so much better today..

later need to go national stadium to support BPMB! jiayou arh..bring something back! haha..

kk later then post more about that....

okay i'm gone~

for that one moment, i'm willing to fight back...

hmm..

hadn't been posting much lately..

yeah hmm..nothing much had happened these few days..maybe only the fact that i've regained 'consciousness' after being dead for so long~

okay..that's a good thing right? it is for me anyway...

i have one thing to say..JINGFANG&ELDORA DRIVES ME NUTS! haha just kidding...

the two of them very cute sia, everytime come and greet me at least twice each day! haha..kind of fun arh, entertained by their cute acts..always make me laugh.....

hmm..exams are coming, i know....this time, i will _______ !!

haha..better late than never!

btw today, enjoyed my lessons.. stayed back to do work.. did literature essay and revised on logarithms.. cos ms tay said,"Can stay but cannot play.." haha..zzzzzz.. then went home with her, jess and syahir..he super funny la, keep saying,"Must study hard okay??" haha..

yeah..so had a good day..hope tmr'll be better!

Believe me, trust me, have faith??

why is it so hard?

Bloody hell.

because life's like that?!

wtf.

this sucks.

PHEW.

i'm tired..had sports carnival today...sunburn on my face(damn it's darker now!)..

apart from my team having to wait for like 2-3hrs for our first game, it was cool..playing basketball..and oh, the sun was like blazing~

first game was against 3L1, yijie's team..wasn't an easy feat, i must say..hmm, but we played well..haha..

at first, teamA played with L1 first..they lost 1-0..so, decided to avenge our classmates through our game...we didn't know who in particular we were up against.. sieyuan wanted to beat them 10-0...ambitious, i know....then, i heard that we were against yijie's team...i was like~ started having doubts..nonetheless, i had faith, had faith in my teammates......

after a long wait, finally, it was our turn to play...was like a little nervous but, yeah...haha..when we were playing, i feel that a lot of people watching la....zzzzz...i shy okay! haha.. ms tay sit first row sia..thought she would leave as soon as her class ended their game but..yeah, she moved to front row...haha..had fun man!! though it was tiring...and i injured my middle finger...but who cares! i had fun, so did my teammates! that's all that matters right? haha..

results of the game: 14-0........THRASH! cool right? haha..

after that game, played with T1, jan's class....sian! that jan keep making me laugh.....and her team was like~~ you can count how many netballers there were...zzzzz..guess who won?

in the end, didnt manage to win anything for the house, or the CLASS.....sad....but, nevermind, GREAT GAME GUYS!

so the day went well...can't wait for the next PE lesson! why? cos can played together again! YEAH, M2 CHIONG ARH!!!

hmm..

sports carnival tmr..excited? okay la.....

had match with cchy..our LAST fun match together with all of us....

the times we had shall never be forgotten..you guys are teammates for life..the momeries are forever kept in me......will miss you guys alot!

am i a loser? i feel like one....

hmm..

spirit oh spirit, my never-say-die spirit......where are you?

can't remember where i lost it, or how it got lost....wish i could cos i would do anything for it now...... mstay said, "it's not lost, it's in you..just gotta use it!"

wish it's that simple to find it..

i tried searching for that long-lost spirit, but to no avail..perhaps i wasn't trying hard enough...

maybe.

or i could have gotten anmesia or something..cant remember a thing!

just hope that it's true, that it's in me...

so i, only i, can help myself....

dont be discourage, no one said it is impossible..just got to believe in myself..

if others can trust me, why cant i trust myself?? right?

hah.