hmm..

it's so early in the morning, i know..

next friday, first paper-EL..damn it..duno why, but i seriously feel that this time round, midyear seems to get here so fast..almost unprepared for it..

I FEEL SCARED. i honestly do...

at this moment, the thing that seemed most appropriate for me to do is to regret, reproach, and waste more time thinking..... but now, i won't..

BUT I STILL FEEL SCARED.

i know it's stupid, it's dumb, for me to get all scared even before entering the battlefield.. WHERE IS THE COURAGE? Aren't there any left?......*SIGH*

all this talk about aiming high, working hard, getting back on track, is all wasted on me...why? oh why am i even thinking of giving up? there's still time to try, get up!!!!

i need the strength.