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Hah. Had training today,like usual... then,before we went home shawn aka coach aka mr lim the A.Maths teacher did slam dunk~ so cooooool! cool right?? he damn tall la!
wah,today i damn sick..well,maybe not DAMN sick..but it's enough to make me feel so weak! but it's okay la,i'm going to get better,i hope.. Btw some of the sec1s i've bee training,wished that i could get well soon and everything..really made my day la,though it's just a simple gesture:) haha,tmr's going to be better,I JUST KNOW IT. but then,OH MAN! there's olevel MT oral for me~drats......better dont screw up man! haha,but i'll do my best,that's for sure..just hope i don't lose my voice tmr~ that'll spell disaster!
okay,enough for today.. i'm gone~ Time flies really fast man. Tmr start of week2 of term3....drats. Been doing alot of soul-searching the past few days,perhaps this is where my decision would either make or break the whole situation.. so,i've decided. It's my path,my road,a journey that I am going on.. so whatever i intend to do in the future really depends on how well i can handle the situation now..no point reproaching,or blame anyone... And seriously,i've learnt to trust only myself..through the hard way.. whatever happens, will happen, you know. "Don't promise what you can't deliver, but deliver more than what you promised." All that talking in the past,only made me procrastinate even more..i'm not saying that your help proved to be more of a hindrance,but.. I guess i have to want to do it on my own. that's why,i'll try to show it this time..show that i really am capable of it,instead of only using my mouth...... hmm..wondering how the B'girls outing had went...in any case,no one told me anything..like the details,so maybe it's being called off,or is it i'm being left out~ nvm,dont care..cos i wouldn't have made it anyway....but yeah,at least i know there was going to be a movie-kind-of-outing.. so yeah,sch tmr. i'm gone~ After the talk,i felt damn......damn....hai,i dont know la.. felt like shit cos i was brought back to reality..felt a bit sorry cos i'm such a disappointment and VERY upset cos i keep repeating the same mistakes despite knowing it well myself.. so sorry dionne,sorry guys..was supposed to take pics but just wasn't in the mood,or rather the right state of mind. so in the end,at least managed to get a shot,with all the sec3s plus junhao.. i think it's nice..brings back those memories...  HAPPY BIRTHDAY DIONNE(26/6) i've been so moody the past few days..after thursday..i mean,it's not her fault that she cares,but the things she said hurts.....plus the fact that vball's my pride,after all the sweat and time that i invested..finally i was able to reap what i sow....THEN,she came and destroy the happy ending of this fairytale..it hurts,it really does hurt...REALITY HURTS. i have very little time left to catch up... suddenly,i feel that sense of urgency..though it's a bit late,better late than never right... after this week,i think i'll make a decision to spend less time on cca.....though it's a damn tough decision to make,i'll have to sacrifice. no point being so happy in the court but feel so damn shitty after stepping out of it..i want to feel happy doing the things i do best,but at the same time,i hope i can juggle the two things that matters most to me well enough. i don't care already. every decision comes with consequences. let me bear them. even if i'm going to lose the things i've been working so hard for, studies are more important... i am a student,right? maybe for all i know, i may lose a spot in the main team.. lose the vice-capt position. may not have good relationship with my teammates. lose all respect from fellow vball mates. BUT i cannot care about this anymore... i'm sorry if i am or will be a letdown. that's it,i'll have no regrets. i'm gone
BLOODY EXHAUSTED. Second day of school. Fair enough. I want to get it back. Watch me. okay...hmm.. today's the first day of school,first day of training for this week...a bit more tiring,compared to the days during holidays where we just sit around and slack.......hah. i learnt something today. i believe it's something that i doubt i can ever realise if i hadnt join volleyball three yrs back... hmm..you know,i feel very lucky to be in a team..a team where you are able to see your potential being brought out,and i'm not targetting skills wise only..it's more than that for those who have yet to experience being part of a team. A team is a group of people working together towards achieving a common goal. what's our goal then? we have a dream, and every member of this team has an important role to play,in order to make it possible for us to attain...... you can be a captain, a vice,or just a member of the team,but it doesn't really matter. So long as you're part of it, you make a difference... i'm just happy to be finally able to do more for this team,to serve, and hopefully help make our journey more pleasant and motivating for everyone. I believe everyone wants to keep this dream alive too...i'm happy to be part of bukit panjang b'div girls 2008.. let's be make this team better. let's work together. together,we can strive to greater heights? hah. we can do it.
okay,i'm gone~ i know it's one day late but, HAPPY BIRTHDAY GUIHUA. hope you had a great day yesterday..now that you're 16,pls act more maturely okay! haha.. anyway,today's the last day of school holidays=there's school tmr yay? or damn? should be both. Yay,cos finally can go school(??) and damn,i think not all work's done..but nvm,heck la~ this week,trainin four times...which leaves me a day to rest? hmm..okay la,better than nothing.... abit tired la today..woke up at what? 11?! yesterday slept very late,at 4~ was chatting with fernanda online..talk talk talk then finally sleep.. hmm..cos last nite already mah,yesterday..must sleep late late,cos may never get the chance to do so in near future,looking at all the trainings and work that will confirm tire us out..may not even have the strength to stay awake till 11~ but yeah,gotten used to it le bah.. btw,shuqun won fmss during friendly..so they shouldn't be a big threat to us..hope that we can keep the dream alive,keep it burning.....the worse thing is to blow it out ourselves~ hah! let's achieve our best..shall have no more regrets guys~ tmr first day,got a feeling i'll be busy the whole day,coming up with excuses~ hah! training tmr. training on wed. training on thurs. training on fri. hope i wont die. okay,enough crap.. i'm gone~ here to update... wah sian sia yesterday....................... went to watch sec1s match at phs..they had friendly with a few schools who came..and by a few,i really meant A FEW-3 other schools to be exact..woodlands ring,some catholic high+little cute cute primary school boys(probably around 9-10yrs of age) and of cos,phs.. started of with wdlands ring sec-won 2:0-purely service game i tell you....they got a damn weird setter la..she like started talking to everyone in the court,so i thought she knew some of our sec1s but NO..they were like freaked out too..super freaky man that girl~haha! then moved on to play with the guys..1st set lost,then 2nd set they put in the primary sch kids..so cute............round-round,fat-fat,chubby-chubby one..but they can play okay! some of their bao qiu still better than alot of us de lor! seriously~ and they were what?? like half my height?? hah! we are a disgrace! haha~~~but still we won,due to cheryl's fast service------Zooommmmmm~~~~~~~ (but seriously,i was really starting to get bored at this juncture..yawns~) if i had counted,i'd probably have yawned 30-50times..............haha junhao was like damn tired too..somemore he was still sick,coughing-coughing until his face all red la~ but still he told me, "Last time you were also like that! haha,now your turn to go through the 'torture' of watching!" haha~~~~~no.................................... then finally,played with phs..seriously man,their standard has dropped~~~drastically..actually i feel that from my batch de phs already drop already the standard........no more 'sey' le~~ aww....if they dont buck up,they will have to face serious problems in future wor........... first set they won......second set we won them....they(phs) anyhow lor,never rotate one-unfair or noob! haha. after that,debrief-go home-sleep actually junhao wanted to go watch bboys match with shuqun de,but he like that,i told him to go hme and sleep-----so yeah,went hme to sleep. after thurs(ytd),i had enough man..i dont knw how he managed to do it for so many years~~~~ but maybe,if i feel like serving the school in half a decades' time,i'll come back to help out:) if the sch wants me that is! haha~ so yeah.....that's how ytd was being spent.. btw i'm looking forward to vball camp in the new sch~~~~~~~pls confirm soon.....i want it.......................... okay,i'm gone Everything's well now... wah! super tired sia! been training the whole week....have muscle aches here and there, and 'mosquito bites'(??) on my leg FOR NO REASON. Damn it. Even after obs................. hmm..let's talk about today~ i was appointed as COACH for sec1s! yup,COACH. cool huh? haha..quite fun,though i must admit,it got kind of boring and frustrating at some point..BUT, when you see them playing so well,you get that..Wah, sense of achievement! so shuang la~ it's as though your hardwork's paid off,and you just feel so.damn.SHUANG. haha! especially after they actually,one by one,express their gratitude and everything..it was enough to make my day! NOT that i want credit for what i did. So tmr's the BIG day..friendly matches at PHS...they playing with a few schools....hopefully we get to be there whole day~(kwim?) THAT MEANS, NO TRAINING FOR ME TMR. GOING TO SUPPORT THE 'FRUITS OF MY LABOUR'! haha,rubbish~ but one bad thing,have to get up damn early.............shit man. hah. but nevermind..it's okay la! it's not every day that i get to be COACH! haha~ hmm..enough...said my piece~ i'm gone! OKAY JIANHUI..I'M CONVINCED. YOU WERE THAT BORED HUH? hmm..anyway,yesterday had friendly with shuqun....and......WOOTS! we won what?? 4-0! cool right?! we were totally on-form and everyone was like BING-BANG~ super cool la...shuqun,on the other hand,weren't on their best..dont know why,but i felt it was jus not their best performance..anyway,the match was super last minute,but thank goodness everyone could make it..glad we won! a great booster to our confidence wor~
so yeah,it was farah's and junhao's birthday last sunday,15June..and again,we had the bash..nice man,farah kena bashed at people's sch! they were having training after the match la for goodness' sake! i think the think we siao de lor~ but,haha! it was fun..especially when our dearest xinni,for unknown reasons,brought match sticks that couldn't work....-.-HOW GREAT! so we had to pretend!the two of them played along~haha! weird people...
haix..why?why?why? thought we were teammates....how long have we known each other? 3yrs?? but still,you chose to be against me....i dont push away the blame cos i know whatever i did,it wasn't something you'd accept..just disappointed that you chose not to say it straight to me..i hate it when you guys'd rather gang up with seniors to go against me..haix...but whatever it is/was,i'm sorry...sorry that you guys dont know me well enough to take my words for real........just so you guys know,i am frank,but not to that extent..and thank god i was in the toilet when you guys said it..it was hurtful man,very hurtful......thanks alot.
HEY CHINYEE, I DO YOUR QUIZ ANOTHER TIME YEAH? no mood.
so yeah,i'm done here.. i'm gone. thanks for the concern.. i'm okay.. i think i'm going to keep it this way.. it's a struggle at first,no doubt.. but it's cool :) hai.. i feel so damn sore...after so much hesitation,i finally decided to let it out...let it out here.... don't know if it's going to help,but yeah,whatever works.. damn. not sure if i should..maybe,i should distant myself from this....though,by doing so,i'd be running away from the problem.. perhaps,that's the reason why i always feel so lousy inside..i dare not face the problem. instead,i chose to escape in order to enjoy those mere moments of relieve? of everything..even when i know,the problem's not going anywhere... wth. i'm running away.. when i know i shouldn't.
i used to think,that knowing it all would help.. instead,it seems that everything i know is going against me... knowing too much only deprives the freedom of feeling hurt, to fall, to fail.. thus stopping us from standing up stronger, wanting to strive further, wanting better... IGNORANCE IS INDEED BLISS. indeed it is.. guess i'm feeling much better now.. but i know,i have to face reality. i have to. the best time, is Now. Yesterday is history, Tomorrow's a mystery, Today's a GIFT, that's why it's called Present. 
BLOODY FISH.
hah. HAHA. went to pierce my ear at cwp today..third hole.. haha,fun fun! i like it man! woohoo! chinyee accompanied me..haha!so fun~we went kfc to eat first,cos she say she hungry..so while she was having her two-piece chicken meal(everytime also same thing),i went to get a cake and waffle....so we were like chatting like nobody's business....... after eating,we walked around the whole place..cy was so excited to see me pierce la! and there i was,trying to stall for time...haha,not that i was afraid or anything~haha..finally,wennt into the 77th Street there for piercing....the whole process took like what?a mere 2mins??haha..cy wanted to cry out ouch for me,but it all happened to fast that i was stunned when it was all done..seriously it was damn fast man!at first didnt feel anything,but gradually the blood started to flow at the area..kind of hot feeling? but i can take it! haha..i was like abit not in the right state of mind awhile after that..damn funny la..it took me like a whole 5mins or so to finally register what cy was saying..........haha! diao~  then,we saw yixin and junjie(both 3P2 de) walking from the opposite direction! we were like~haha! the two of them shy shy de lor! duno what they hiding..walked so far apart from each other.......haha!and of cos,i told my buddy about it!she got so damn excited la!haha..ask to take video somemore! wth right this buddy???haha! we slowly lost sight of them,so yeah,dont want kaypoh already la... then we went to have dessert..i had mango ice kacang and cy had mango something-something...damn shuang la,the feeling!haha..and we continued talking~now about vball..previously about obs(and THIS PARTICULAR GIRL that disgusted us!)talk talk talk...then we went off searching for piggybank or something...blahblahblah......then we got ourselves a new friendship band.....cos the previous one was rotting!(but dont worry,we dont have the heart to throw it away) haha... so yeah,walked and walked.....then finally went home...... i got match tmr night at hougang..should be 8plus...before that,training~ oh man........ just got dragged into a alien conversation....didnt know what they were saying la..dont know what armed forces or something.........weird~ haha,okay..i'm gone! PHEW. back from obs..like finally~ i see civilisation! haha,but not that much diff la actually,apart from the fact that we're separated from our phones(which i didnt surrender anyway)..so yeah.. ARMSTRONG IS THE BEST!!!! hahaha!i love my watch man~the people so funny..and somehow or rather,a starfish popped out of a rooster's head,and a pulau pulau ubin was created!haha..hilarious. Watch5/ARMSTRONG consists of: me.janelle.brenda.alvin.chinwen.jianwei.jieying.rizki.xiaoxing.yuecong.kely.amirul.izzat. yongxiang.dingjie funny dudes..very lucky mix!haha plus our instructor:Tracy so obs wasn't that bad afterall la,since my watchmates are nice people! i won't go into detail what we did from Day1-5 cos i believe my other watchmates have or will do so anyway~save me the trouble!haha.. but i'll highlight a few significant events which took place during the five days..haha.. My highest peak: Being at the top of the height element(below) and sitting on it!i rmb swinging my legs too la!what was i thinking??and standing on the hanging log!if i were to think back now,i wouldn't believe in a million years that i actually did that!haha,weird me..
okok.. got to admit one thing,obs made me see the sec3s in a whole new light,be it for the better or otherwise..i'll miss Tracy,i'll miss sleeping with the realistic and crazy pair(brenda and janelle)!,i'll miss ARMSTRONG..and i'll miss all the fun times we had together,through thick and thin,enduring through the worse times and having crispy rice for dinner!haha.. Brenda-the realistic one,always burst our creative but unrealistic bubble! Janelle-the fun one,who's always excited to brush teeth! Yongxiang-the random one,who said he was hungry instead of being scared when on the height element Alvin-photography talent? Chinwen-the backbone of ARMSTRONG! Jianwei-the best timekeeper,who never fails to keep track of time and pressing us to keep to deadlines! Kely-the starfish,who talks and eats very little Yuecong-the onion with big eyes!haha Jieying-my partner when carrying out activities! Amirul-my kayaking partner!the nice guy Izzat-our ABANG!great sea X leader! Dingjie-the small little puny one who weighs 30kg!haha..(seriously dude,eat more!) Xiaoxing-the nice prc guy! &Rizki-the one with a weird thinking but never fails to keep us entertained! To Tracy:i know you wont get to read this,but i'll still write it anyway..thanks for the guidance,thanks for laughing with us,thanks for eating the last dinner with us,thanks for helping me wash my red eyes,thanks for having ARMSTRONG,thanks for the times we had..Thanks alot!though to you,it may just be another day at work,but to us,it's a whole life-changing experience!thank you Tracy! It may be the end of the five days,but this is no doubt the start of new friendships! Go ARMSTRONG!
OBS WATCH5.ARMSTRONG 2008 BYE! GONE FOR A WEEK.. |
haha!cute right!