felt like shit cos i was brought back to reality..felt a bit sorry cos i'm such a disappointment and VERY upset cos i keep repeating the same mistakes despite knowing it well myself..

so sorry dionne,sorry guys..was supposed to take pics but just wasn't in the mood,or rather the right state of mind.

so in the end,at least managed to get a shot,with all the sec3s plus junhao..

i think it's nice..brings back those memories...

i've been so moody the past few days..after thursday..i mean,it's not her fault that she cares,but the things she said hurts.....plus the fact that vball's my pride,after all the sweat and time that i invested..finally i was able to reap what i sow....THEN,she came and destroy the happy ending of this fairytale..it hurts,it really does hurt...REALITY HURTS.

i have very little time left to catch up...

suddenly,i feel that sense of urgency..though it's a bit late,better late than never right...

after this week,i think i'll make a decision to spend less time on cca.....though it's a damn tough decision to make,i'll have to sacrifice. no point being so happy in the court but feel so damn shitty after stepping out of it..i want to feel happy doing the things i do best,but at the same time,i hope i can juggle the two things that matters most to me well enough.

i don't care already.

every decision comes with consequences.

let me bear them.

even if i'm going to lose the things i've been working so hard for, studies are more important...

i am a student,right?

maybe for all i know,

i may lose a spot in the main team..

lose the vice-capt position.

may not have good relationship with my teammates.

lose all respect from fellow vball mates.

BUT i cannot care about this anymore...

i'm sorry if i am or will be a letdown.

that's it,i'll have no regrets.

i'm gone