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Hmm. Today,another teacher talked about PSLE aggregate score again... Which makes me feel so useless everytime. Hai.. It's not that i don't want to,but i've gotten myself into deepshit eversince last year, and.. haven't really gotten out of it till now. I'm such a letdown.. especially when i recalled the hardwork i've put in 3years ago.. Am i really letting it go down the drain? I've had enough, really had enough. Don't want to waste any more time already, but it seems to be out of my control now. One by one, teachers come up to me,expecting more from me.. i mean, i like the fact that they think highly of me, but i just can't bring myself to face the fact that i'm losing it. I know that those people really want to push me on, but.. i'm now even unsure of my own capabilities now..Like, what shit is that? Totally unacceptable-MY ATTITUDE SUCKS. One day,I'm going to look back and regret all that i've done..Especially what i could have but have not done..to steer clear of all these distractions. I SUCK AT SS, like REALLY SUCK at it~ Zzzz.. i'm just ranting.. Had training just now, like what's new? hah. It was great la, performed better today i guess.. as a whole, but coach said not very well as a unit though.. We were hihi-haha-ing in the court, we play better that way but just didn't seem to be seriously playing~ i don't think we were slacking la, i disagree with him, though i admit there were times we just let go.. But overall, training was great.. Going to have friendly with the guys tmr.. Hope everyone'll be on-form, wait, hope I'll be on-form :) Hey, i know you're a little upset, but i don't think whatever i'm doing or have done was anything of a help. Well, i did try, cos i know you're going through a rough patch now, but what about me? i spent close to two years fighting for this and i think i well deserve it. All's fair. Though i believe i had put in more time, effort, blood and pain to get this far.. You have a special ability, that's the thing that made us almost equal back then. But you can't be selfish, and expect me to lose to you everytime. It's my turn to enjoy the harvest. I'm sorry if the competition has strained our friendship. I truly treasure our friendship and i don't wish to let go of it. I hope you'd be more mature in handling these two matters separately... Hope you'd understand :) Having friendly at PJC this saturday,i think i've mentioned it before.. Now i have to run all over the place.. cos i need to attend the final round of my translation comp! Well, this is it! i want it so bad that i still think it's too good to be true~ Hah. i just can't believe we've managed to qualify.. Hope there really isn't any mistake:) oh yeah! just remembered! i got el oral this fri, followed by night-study.. so no training..HEHE. okay, done here.. I'm gone~ Currently trying to figure out the 8 formulae for A.maths..cosec,cot,etc etc................ Since i was absent last friday when he went through all of this, i have to read up myself.. Not that difficult la, still manageable..but the exercises,.......... needless to say. Damn shagged now. Had training just now; the best part was, of cos, the match part. The rest was rubbish. But can't blame coach, we only have like <15balls~>Anyway, we don't have training tmr, SUPPOSEDLY. Have buffet after school tmr.. But junhao just had to make us do pt after 4~~~~~~~ hah. how to do pt? you tell me!zzzzzzz it's as good as having training-.- Hah. I'm not complaining or anything though :) I'm just voicing out my thoughts :D GUESS WHAT? Manaf said we got into translation finals -.- ERM.... i thought we flung it already??? Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Just when i thought i could focus on the friendly matches this saturday, i was given another ray of hope -.- I really think it's too good to be true. May be some kind of mistake. But, LET"S SAY, i really get in, wah.......... Not bad sia! HAHA. before i turn into a narcissist, i'd better shut up. Oh yeah, to those who comforted me today(esp. my teammates), thanks alot yeah! feeling better :) Haha,xinni kissed me! My cheek was wet for .... 2mins? HAHA. But that made my day :) Thanks guys! okay, i'm gone Listen. Oh-kay.. Had training after the 4-5 days of break, quite tiring.. School was fine, sat in comp lab for two hours, consecutively..for chemistry&hmt.. Didn't do much, total waste of time. Today, i was damn grumpy. Hah, really grumpy la.. short-tempered.. In the morning, had headache, so felt pissed with everything. So shit la, i know..But it was freaking, throbbing pain la. TSk. Then when it was recess, ms tay saw my grumpy face and asked me what's wrong. Hah, i was like ------- THROBBING PAIN. But soon enough, it went away~ Training started at 3plus for us, since we had some kind of bazaar-related stuff right after school.. then trained with new training tees..it was okay la, at least SO MUCH better than last year's~ Vincent's taste got better! haha. So yeah,trained trained. Got pissed off, AGAIN. With everything, then felt too tired also---- Zzzz~ So yeah,i apologise if i had scolded you guys, or screamed at you at the top of my lungs. Can't be helped :( Anyway, we have friendly with jurong, huayi& pjc next next saturday? 2August. OH GREAT. The same day as my translation comp finals~~tsk! But havent confirm go finals yet la, see how this saturday.. Really hope i can make it to finals though! but then,i want to go friendly too :'( hmm, whatever happens, let fate decide bah! though i seriously think i should invest more time on things other than volleyball:) Besides, i love translation! haha. So we'll see.. Okay, i'm done here. Gone. HAPPY BIRTHDAY JESSICA(cheng)! 26JULY. 2AUG. 12AUG. Haix..don't bother asking me about these dates, i know can already~ Hmm..so life without training; very relaxed la, except for the fact that i'm constantly worried about having to lose any volleyballs. Apparently, there's some kind of volleyball-craze going on eversince vincent's not around anymore. But at least xinni'd put a lock to the cage.. those people so daring now la, anyhow go to the cage and helped themselves to the balls! Like i mean, ask for permission first la at least~ Ugh. Okay nevermind. Stayed back in school today.. Completed bio assignments, SPEAKING OF WHICH, i have a test tmr! Drats. ms aza told me to study cos i haven't been doing so :X and it's kind of evident. But she said i got a "Good marks" face -.- erm. oh-kay~ HAHA. Anyway,......(kind of forget what to write,got distracted by the messenger thingy) Hmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. Oh yeah.......................! FINE. I CAN'T REMEMBER WHAT TO WRITE. stm~ forget it. so yeah..i'm done here i guess. P.S: For those who just realised that playing volleyball is fun, i'm so sorry, cos you guys won't get to touch the balls anymore...soooo sad..........................! cos the CAGE WILL BE LOCKED as of today onwards:) Okay,i'm gone. Okay,fine. I'll post! wah,damn pissed now man, dont know why! arghhhhhhhhhhhhhha~~~~~~ Anyway,spent the whole afternoon at dionne's..watched step up2~ been a long time since we last spend time that way together..so much laughter,haha! xinni especially~ Managed to catch a glimpse of her 'wild' moves though it's nothing compared to seeing it 'LIVE'! haha~ she never fails to make us laugh! haha~ Before long, we were all trying to follow the moves! fun la~ though kind of....err..okay,let's just say it's funny! hah! then we went downstairs to play volleyball, well anyhow hit de la, cos the ball damn painful! it's the ancient kind! hah,but it was fun, watching xinni trying to dance(?) with the beat of the ball? dont know if it even makes any sense! haha. and oh yeah, that dionnie and xinni zilian sia! take pic use my phone then put as my wallpaper-.- what the.......... okay,you comment yourself!
P.S: XINNI~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ hai! dont know what to say! haha! okay,that's it. may be back tmr, or next year.. but for now, i'm gone~ If i could, i would. Darn it. WAH. Very tired, voice almost gone~ but it was well worth it! CBOYS ARE NATIONAL CHAMPIONS! YEAH, NATIONAL CHAMPIONS. BUKIT PANJANG GOVT. HIGH C DIV BOYS ARE NATIONAL CHAMPIONS! OH-KAY..so i was a little excited for them.. towards the last few points~ Like what tom chan said, WE ARE THE 5SETS SPECIALIST! haha! whatever~ But yeah,the excitement was short-lived though, for me i mean.. Don't know why, but i seriously want to be holding our own cup, one we earn ourselves.... Wonder if that day would ever come... haha. Very happy today man! Well,not much of the fact cboys got champ, but more of,.... MY TEAM GOT INTO THE SECOND ROUND OF TRANSLATION COMP!-the one that i've been rambling about... YES-SAH!!!!!!! HAHA. So i guess now,i know where my strength lies-i think! haha. But at least now~ okay,that's it.. Really hope tom chan will give us two weeks off training cos i need a break! okay,i'm gone! Sat for O LEVEL MT listening comprehension today.. well,just only la- at around 5 start? yeah... Was sitting in in the second row,second column from the left,so the radio was like kind of blasting~ to me, at least... And my name's on that table! So 204 ppl,if you get that table,you're damn lucky!haha~ i think listening compre is fun la! Like junwei said, it was like 2++ years since we sat for such paper,during PSLE.... well yeah, that is a long time.... So didn't make it to training today. But didn't miss out alot also, since it rained+they were using outdoor,so yeah i'm spared~ so yeah,made it in time for 'debrief' when we discussed about end of year plans-chalet and all those things..... Ripcurl Beach Volleyball Comp also,but don't think i'll be joining bah,this year.. Participated last year,so i guess it's okay even if i miss this year's.. So it's okay,doesn't matter~ TOMORROW OUR C BOYS PLAYING IN NATIONAL FINALS! Against Dunman sec... Hope you guys play well tmr! whatever the outcome, we'll still love you! haha,but of cos,i think you guys can be CHAMPIONS! Just don't get affected by the crowd though.. Should i go? i'm so caught in between,AGAIN. caught between ss and history-changing moment.....it's so difficult to make the right choices... DAMN. okay, nevermind. tmr then decide la. Btw,just to update, i didn't go to the record-challenge,but i heard 700+ ppl came! and we won! good good~ true BPian SPIRIT~ the thing i love about my school :) Okay,once again, GOOD LUCK to our boys! GOOD LUCK to me too~ okay,i'm gone MASS DANCE TODAY. Don't know if i should go, cos homework is my first priority for today,as well as any other weekends..but then, i'll miss out alot, either way. I show you why it's difficult for me to decide. Yesterday eileen forwarded messages out to everyone, including me..A few days ago,jianhui asked me to go, and just yesterday, xinni sent out messages to all bgirls-giving us five reasons why we should go: 1) Very good bonding opportunity cos most of the bgirls will be there. 2) The school needs US to win this comp! 3) We can be on TV! 4) There's Pornsak! (i like this reason esp! ><) 5) We sort of promised LJS! - well, me&my big mouth~ So with these five reasons,i'm hesistating................ Should i, or should i not? Damn. Okay okay, i'll cross the brigde when i reach it. For now, i'll start doing work.. Okay i'm done here. Will update on my decision! Btw, i got a new tagboard~ Help me flood yeah? okay,i'm gone BACK FROM TRANSLATION! woots! it was damn fun la,the competition..teamed up with ka shen&weiliang(slight change) translated like from malay to english,vice-versa. then after individual round,we had to translate like in our group; words and also phrases..damn funny la the two of them! weiliang especially.. cos when we were given 10secs to translate a phrase,within 2secs he got it liao~ NLB! haha.. then the next one i shouted HDB,then slowly say out the long words......we like so ganchiong la! But i think we stand a chance to go next round~ Hopefully we do! Soon after,we went for lunch..manaf's treat! haha,met roger there..surprising~ then when i asked how come he was there,he said he want kope my food,but when he saw manaf, he ran away! haha,see la! come disturb me somemore! then after eating,went home-too tired le.. so now,blogging abit.. btw changed the skin~ if you didn't notice......... okay,later post somemore bah i'm gone! oh-kay....here to update.. wah,today's training super shiok man! PT Day! it was fun,and now i'm liking the tight feeling in my muscles..haha,long time never do pt le...... we ran 2.4km(well,not exactly), then went out of school to blk7 to run up the stairs-till the 20th storey~ damn fun! haha..but yeah, it WAS TIRING.....then jogged back to sch and did weights..did superman and batman~ and i found a new motivation! I WANT TO GO ********! haha~ and i will work towards it! then went to play ball in the hall,with that mr.thomas lee,and xinni,dionne,farah~fun! oh man,i've never felt so good before~ anyway,i have translation competition tmr~ teaming up with two asean scholars-Bayu&WeiLiang.. hope can go to the next round, but yeah, whatever happens, i'll still love translation! so yeah,going to read up some a maths~ (watch tv at the same time..hehe)\ okay,done. i'm gone~ Hah. True enough,if you want to be happy,live life by enjoying everything that you do. Every day, i find that this makes perfect sense, and i'm really loving living! haha. So don't come to me and say life sucks cos i'll seriously think that you have NO life. really,who'd say their life suck? at least,try make the best of it la, i mean, that's all you'll get at the end of the day~ why don't you just live it the way you want it to be? So from now on, i'll keep the smile on my face, cos i know i'm never going to regret ever doing that! CHILL,my friend~ haha.. today,whole day rotting..i know i shouldn't be(yayaxxx) but have to wait for the sudden urge to start work..maybe in awhile it'll come.. but in the meantime,i'll write something~ okay,it's sunday. lingying asked me to go play basketball,but too busy with work(SUPPOSEDLY),that i turned down the offer!haha,it's not everyday that ly come asking you to go out~haha,you know,you know.........so yeah,in the end,i'm rotting. i've decided. we need to have BONDING sessions..let's all be happy about it! come on,bgirls! let's go east coast or something~ i don't mind.......... hey!talking about east coast,my class was supposed to go there lor yesterday..but cos too many ppl can't make it,it's being postponed to september holidays...what a bumper! zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. nvm~ i shall organise an outing for bgirls instead! HAHAHA. so girls,be prepared! next weekend bah~ okay,i'm done here. i'm gone~ o-kay..BAZAAR over.. seriously,it wasn't as much fun as last year's, so damn free this year until got bored..Zzzzzz.. maybe cos i was slacking? couldn't stand sitting at the game stall, sian dao~~~~~~wah,boring man~ went around in trash bag 'suit'..haha,last year had to sneak out in apron..then kena blast with water and 'blood' at3P2's..haha,according to jingfang,their game was like a bit lame arh..sua the little customers..haha..then walked past the haunted house,by M1&T2-------- they got lonnnggg queue la~ didn't get to see what's so scary though..so i dont know what happened in there..but bet,with people like brina and dionne in there,sure..............HAHA. nevermind about that. anyway,sorry to some of the juniors cos i was supposed to patronize their stall but didn't.. haha,then went up to the hall to watch malcolm sing..seriously dude,you rock! the first person to make me cry with his singing~ though the intonation not that superb,BUT YOU STILL ROCK MAN! haha,MY BPIAN IDOL~ hah! then,went back to the cabin area to sleep..jiayi came,and gave me her coupons..damn,-.- i was like, "Now i have more coupons!" only used up 50cents of my own la.......Zzzzzzzz...so,more reasons for me to go walk around and spend them.DRATS. haha..so yeah,the only thing i bought was a pack of cookies from 206 and ice blended mango from 202..zzzzzzzzz..the rest went to my class box.
yesterday was so damn boring la~ haha,until training! we damn kee siao sia during training..sang and sang on stage,like band..all of us,SUPPOSEDLY SENIORS, singing and acting like retards..but super fun la~~~~~~`until i forgot how to start the country road song! think and think,only remember, "west virgina,...shenondoah river.." haha! BUT NOW I REMEMBER! IT'S "ALMOST HEAVEN"!!!!! haha,oh-kay,that was uncalled for. nvm... image gone.haha! so yeah,i just love my teammates-SEC3s~ hah,i'm gone~ Ha. been sick the whole week,for four days man..shit. now my cough can kill me. so damn bloody irritating. can't speak at the top of my voice. only can speak so softly,like who the hell can freakingly hear la. can't train. can't train anyone else. SIAN. @**!&(*$&(*U)@(*$)(@*)($*(@*(8-92 okay. ENOUGH.
today,the cgirls lost to sembawang- out of nationals le~ sad sad. but,yeah..at least finally can train as bgirls liao right? just now,during their debrief,i seriously dont know where the words from my mouth came from..suddenly felt like crying?! hah. maybe thought of c'girls 06 bah...we were in worse state,being so much closer but so much more further from our dream.....................hai. we took like what, a month or so to finally get over it??! but yeah,have to stand up and face the fact..only then can you make the future better? by doing what that hasn't been done...i don't know..but we'll show that BPGHS is not to be trampled on.
okok..back to me..feeling so...................don't know how to say,but..kind-of-tight-feeling-in-my-chest-feeling-bad-but-duno-what feeling....... okay whatever. anyway. tmr,must come down support 3M2 wor~~~~~~~~~~~ GUESS THE BUCKET. hehe.
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hai,that's my team! though a little, erm, UNIQUE at times, they're the ones who give my life more meaning you know! hah, love them la! haha!