This isn't right.

Damn it.

I hate it when people force me to push myself. Not literally, but seriously man, i just hate it..

I mean, i was selected for this student-exchange thing but i'm starting to feel that i don't even deserve it. I like to be rewarded when i do well, but a reward in advance? That's too much for me. I don't want to feel obliged to do well.. I WANT TO DO WELL when i feel like doing well.. You can expect me to work under pressure, wanting me to prove my worth just so that i can go on some trip overseas.. I'm not saying that i'm unappreciative of the opportunity given to me, but what the heck, I really don't give a damn.

I'm going to reject it tomorrow.