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The first month of sec4 wasn't that bad :D I think i'm getting the hang of it, something which i should have a year ago :( But it's alright. A lesson learnt :) Hmm. Now, have to focus a bit more on volleyball. Tournament around the corner. Hopes everything will go as expected. Yeah. I have to re-schedule all the timed practice that will clash with the matches man. If not, those teachers will come after me! Hahah. Oh yeah, yesterday i had bio test. Well, i hope i did good. Haha. I think what they say is true. You'll only learn to cherish things when you know that you're going to lose it. Definitely agree. Last few months of secondary school, and i'm enjoying every minute of it. But hey, i seem to be the only one la -.- In class, before recess, i see people dozing off. After recess, i still see people sleeping. Some even drool, omg -.- Zzzz. While i (being the yong gong one, HAHAH) happily listening to the teachers teaching. Eh i feel so fortunate okay! Alright, alright. 4M2 serves as a very conducive place to study. We are the only class with 34 people la! With such a small number, it feels so cosy and warm~ Hahah, there's this, i'm-in-primary-school feeling. Especially in bio class- 18 people. Or in mt class- 14 people. It's a good feeling :D Okay, back to revision. School was quite relaxing today. But training... Omg, it's like by far (in 1-2months) the most tiring training ever. I'm like half-dead now -.- Saw hanjun at cck control just now. They defeated clementi town 2-0. Wah seh~ Oh yeah! Know what?? The day-off to 'celebrate' the good results of our seniors in the 2008 O levels can't fall on a better date! Haha, on 3rd feb leh~ Haha. Woohoo. What a way to celebrate your birthday. Hah, Aiya, but actually, i don't mind going to school that day (: Hmmmm. OH YEAH, jessicacheng gave me an advanced birthday present today! Billabong pencil case, with lots of nougats inside ^^ Thanks uh(: Zzzzzzzzz. I think i'm going to KO soon. VERY soon. Another day at school. Nothing much. *Fast forward*
hai. Damn it. Sorry to those i yelled at just now. I was very pissed la. What's the english word for 'serik'? Haha, cos that's what i am. Hmmm. I'm thinking again. (Being me-.- I think alot) Hai, was just wondering. Life isn't exactly all that sweet and 'sugary'. For now, for myself at least, i figure secondary school isn't that bad. Well, FOR NOW. But then again, i guess the world out there is pretty scary eh? Hmm. The problems that we face in school can't be worse. Fear? If you ask me, i can't deny flatly that i'm totally not scared of the world out there, but i'm certainly not staying in 'here' forever. I want to explore. I want to make the world mine... Okay, bullshit. Haha. Hmm. I wonder what would become of me in.. let say, 5-8years to come? i will be 21, 24.. Wow. It would really be great if i'm given a chance to do what i like. I remember my late grandma telling me to study hard.. She said it would be an advantage. (like duh) I was just a kid then you know. Didn't know what she meant. I mean, as a kid, you would imagine yourself as a successful person in years to come, drive a porsche car or something. Yet, our actions seem to be contradicting.. We neglect our studies, and go on doing other things. Totally wasting time. Completely ignoring the link between ambitions and commitment to studies. But i remember this part so vividly. I will never forget when i told her, i'd study hard so that i could drive her in my car. For her to live with me. Wow. That was my motivation. Somehow, i kind of lost it. Now, even though she's gone, i'll pick myself up. By the way, i know there aren't many who read this blog (all the better), but i just want to express my gratitude to those who believed in me. Even when i screwed up, or messed my life big time, or 'heck care' your assignments, you still believe that i can do it. You guys fought for me, i know. Thanks for making me feel hopeful. Like i said, if i were to **** to sc, i'm not farashazreen. HEY GUYS! Vote for the animation! Just type in your NRIC and details to vote for the infocomm club :D Here! Thanks! Oh yeah, Hmm, okayokay. 26th. It's monday alr! Anyway, i hereby declare CNY as the "BORING-est" holiday ever! Haha, NO OFFENCE. But really, cos wherever i go (as in my house de downstairs), NONE of the shops are open -.- Zzzzzzzzzzz. Hahah. Sian. So here i am, rotting temporarily. Will resume with work later on, but for now, i'll type. Anyway, speaking of westzone, i heard alot of schools (from the other zones) got kicked out alr. Which means, we won't see them. Oh my my my, come to think of it, westzone's NEXT WEEK. Right? *goes on to check calendar* Correct correct. So fast eh. First match on 6feb, second match on 11th. Third, on 12th. Some matches are like scheduled right after one another. Consecutive. Crazy. Wednesday, Thursday, Friday. Oh my. Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz. Okay, got to go. Hahah. Today's the 25th of Jan eh? So fast! Hmmm. I must get my homework done by today. And get on with revisions tomorrow! Yippee~ I love studying! (I'm not being sarcastic!) Haha. For all i know, I may not get to enjoy studying so carefree-ly after this year. Anyway, after the thrash-out session with team last friday, me, dionne and hazirah went to talk near dionne's house. We talked about matured stuff okay! Haha, like decision-making... and what we want to be. Hmm, now that we're going to be 16, it's no longer the nursery-kindergarten-primary-school kind of question okay! And i got to know more about their ambition and stuff. Made me ponder over my own. I know what i want, just wished i got this all straightened out earlier. Would have helped me alot. But, oh well! It's not too late. If you're wondering what profession i'm interested in, ...... Don't tell you! Hahah! After westzone and nationals, it'll be the last sprint. And instead of rambling and complaining about it, i'm going to enjoy every minute of it. I don't care (: Afterall, i am known for being totally "emotionless" before exmas, even major ones ^^ Not bo chap HOR! Haha. COMPOSURE! :D Alright. Going to do work now :D How great! Woohoo~ Our first match is coming. -> vs Bt. View(o6feb) I ate ice cream. Again. Hah. Stupid me. Okay. Basically, i have <4days to do what i planned. Tmr's CNY eve right... Anyway, Happy Chinese New Year to all! Phew. The conflict is finally resolved (: Oh my, the issue that had been haunting us since sec1? Wah, it's finally over. Though yesterday,... Okay. Yesterday is over, all in the past. Let put it behind us. Heart-warming... I cried. At the thought of everything that we had gotten ourselves into. All that hurt and suffering. I guess, the happiest moment was when i hugged xinni? Yeah, it was then that i realised, it is over. I'm glad that it is. Yay, and right on time. My birthday's around the corner! Actually i got my birthday wish alr, so, i'm contented ^^ Happy 16 for me, soon. Once again, like i said, you guys are my family. No doubt about it. I love you guys. Wow. I'm proud of myself! Stupid shit la. No wonder i failed last year~ Simple things also scare myself -.- Hmmm. After this week, going to have saturdays training le. No more luxury of time :( Timed prac as of tomorrow. Have to rush for trainings and everything. Which means, i have to stay up to do homework. No more long beauty sleep :( Haha. Damn. Other normal human beings can stay up even after 12 to finish their work, but i can't! I'll go 'drunk' at 11! Zzz. Lousy leh. I'm no nocturnal creature! Sian. I remember ms tay said must 'train' myself to stay up longer, if not i'll have less time for work. You know, earthlings only have 24hrs~ Hmm. I was thinking... If CNY's holidays are next mon and tue, celebrations must be on this fri right? Hmmmmm. Can't be on sun WHAT -.- Haha. I'm annoying myself.
My birthday is coming. SO? 16yrs old. So old already~ Sec1 orientation'06 feels like yesterday~ I'm a sec4 student. hah, SEC4! On the last note, westzone's coming. Let's slide on the court -.- Back. By right, i shouldn't even be out. Zzz. Okay, i wasted alot of time today. Damn it. Alright, i'll just keep this short. Timed prac starts this coming week! Woohoo! Hahha, make no difference. I'm like already used to having timed prac. Oh yeah, the fixtures. It was out LONG ago. FRI 06/2 2.15 - JSS vs US 3.00 - HY vs NYG 3.45 - BP vs BTV ___________________________________________ MON 09/2 2.15 - SQS vs BLS 3.00 - YHS vs HG 3.45 - RVH vs US WED 11/2 1.30 - BP vs BLS 2.15 - SQS vs BTV 3.00 - JSS vs NYG 3.45 - HY vs RVH THUR 12/2 12.45 - US vs NYG 1.30 - JSS vs RVH 2.15 - YHS vs BLS 3.00 - HG vs BTV 3.45 - BP vs SQS FRI 13/2 12.45 - BP vs YHS 1.30 - SQS vs HG 2.15 - BLS vs BTV 3.00 - JSS vs HY 3.45 - NYG vs RVH ________________________________________________ MON 16/2 12.45 - HY vs US 1.30 - BP vs HG 2.15 - SQS vs YHS WED 18/2 12.45 - YHS vs BTV 1.30 - BLS vs HG semi-finals: 2.15 - X1 vs Y2 3.00 - Y1 vs X2 THUR 19/2 finals: 2.00 - 3rd/4th - 1st/2nd 3.45 - Prize Presentation ----------------------------------------------------------------------- When you have to do something new, say," This CAN BE GOOD, and it WILL BE GOOD!" Had training at cck sports hall today. So yeah, today's training was tiring man. Preparing to fight our opponents. Have to play smart. Cannot anyhow alr! Yeah, and for the first time, i had to use my wonderful underhand to defend. Haha, if you know what i mean. A little frustrated with myself but i guess it's not too bad la. Can de (: Praising myself again. Oh yeah, we played with the video cam that junhao and mr.thomas brought. Xinni, as usual, was the lead. She sang. [You guys must be like, "SHI-ET"] Haha, yeah. AS USUAL, it sounded rather, NICE (: HAHAHAA. Okayokay.
Timed prac commencing next week. Hmmmm. Three more weeks to ours. Zzzzz. Dionne: Hey, your defence is great, but you got to work on that positive thinking (: Hey team, let's do this together. The last lap. We're almost there. For the first time, i don't know what to write. Westzone will only be starting in 3weeks' time for bgirls~~~~~ Omg, cheat my feelings! Anyway, saw ms tay today! (okay, she's my ss teacher -.-) But it's been so long since i got high with her! Hahaha. Then i saw ms aza (: Okay, i saw her in class before that, BUT still, everytime i talked to her, i feel so motivated? You know, after a long day, you feel so tired and demoralised, all you need is that someone to come and pat your shoulder, saying, "Hey, you're made to be up there!" HAHAHA, okay fine, NOT that i'm asking for praises okay! Haha (: Yeah, you know what i mean ^^ Okay, a few bad things about today. Mr Ng checked the exercise books today. I am changing, but he just couldn't see it :( What a drag~ By the way, i bought some assessment book of some sort. And my teammates laughed when i told them i was getting them -.- GRR. What's so funny!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAHAHAH. Okay, homework time! Woooooooooohooooooooo~ Sweet man! A1 Sssseeeeeeyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!! So one A1 secured. Yay! Anyway, had friendly with cboys today. Okay la, not too bad. My setting too near net alr. It's my index finger :( It still hurts. BUT, that won't stop me! (: West zone is coming. The release of O level results tmr. ANYWAY, Can i get A1? Please please please....... I want an A1. But, i'm really afraid that the paper1 would pull down the whole grade. Please laaaaaaaaaaaaaa. A1. A1. A1. A1. A1 !!!!!!!
Haha, there're changes in the training schedule. So i need to see you guys tmr. Anyway, you guys still have to hang around for the sec1s try-out right? So yeah. Looking at my west zone cgirls medal. 2007. Wow. 2008 west zone tournament. Didn't play. Wasn't even part of main12 then. So no recollection. Now, 2009. West zone's starting on the 19th? Well very soon. In conclusion, i have SI BEI GUAILAN teammates (: Hahaha, come here just to annoy me -.- Anyway, just came back from school. Stayed back for the sec1 orientation campfire. Okay la, not too bad. The PA system was good so the atmosphere was certainly better than the last year's. Hmm, before that had the CCA Roadshow. Wasn't actively involved. I went to the canteen to day-dream and drink. Felt so lost. Didn't feel like i belong anywhere. Not volleyball, not 4M2. I don't even know myself anymore. I hate it when i hate myself. As for another source of my concern, it's like this; Imagine yourself running a long marathon. After so long, you can finally see the finishing line without anyone else in front of you. Perhaps, at the side or behind you. Confidence and momentum all built up. All that's left to do is that one last kick to achieve that gold medal. All of a sudden, you feel a stone in your shoes. And there's two ways to handle this: One; Continue running with the discomfort, hoping that nothing will go wrong. Two; Stop, take the stone out of the shoe then sprint the last lap. Both have their disadvantages. For the first, anything can happen. There is no certainty you'll get there, unharmed. For the second, there is no guarantee you'd ever get there, before the last runner. You would even make things worse than it already is. So how? Seriously, i feel like i have a hand, four fingers and a thumb. All so perfect on the surface, but there's one finger you can't move. The index finger. It plays a significant role, like the other fingers. True, the thumb and the middle finger can operate well even without the index, but there will always be a defection. The hand can no longer function as well. The frustration, of not being able to even lift that finger up, is indeed devastating. "I want to lift that finger up. I don't wish to ignore it because i know it's part of my hand. IT IS PART OF ME." If conceding defeat is what you want me to do, then i'll gladly oblige. Whatever it takes. This is our las shot at glory. You know that as well as i do. Come on, put differences aside please? Yay, time to praise myself :D Haha, trying to be a good student here, so better get on with a good start! Okayokay, today.. Very sad. Off to my amaths homework, and bio revision! My posts won't be daily anymore. School has only begun, yet i'm feeling all the stress getting into my head. Today, i saw almost the whole team breaking down. I felt so helpless, cos it seemed that there's nothing much that i could do to help lessen the pressure. It's sad, it really is. My only wish now is for you guys to stay strong alright? Don't leave me 'alone'. Remember, we win, we lose, we fight for the team. ANYWAY.... I down there laughing like hell, cos her acting was like.............. -.- (No comments).
Oh yeah, the draw is out. Our grouping; Good, or lousy draw? You tell me. I'LL FIND YOU WHEN I'VE REACHED THE FINISH LINE. The first step is always the hardest. I hope i won't give it up before trying. But sadly, i'm all worn out. No, no. I shall prove it. Even if i collapse, i won't stop. Haiyo! How am i supposed to do a book review when i don't read books -.- So troublesome. Here i am, complaining and complaining. I should just go to school early tmr. Sleep now! Can't they just make me analyse a short poem or something... A book, so longggg. Zzz. By the way, training on 2, 3, 4, 5. There's some sort of open house on friday so training will have to depend on venue. Went out for dinner with my family (: And i'm damn tired now!!!!! Hmm. Had friendly with SMU. Not a good match for me :( I was struggling to keep awake seriously, but first set was good (: Dived for balls near net. Heh, good right! Hahaha, it's just like me, praising myself~ Lingying, dionne and a few others couldn't make it, so it wasn't much fun at all. After match, we did some sort of PT junhao 'invented' using the chairs -.- Tiring leh! Yeah, 5sets of 30. With 5chairs. Hah, then we sat down to talk. Hmm, talked alot of stuff. Hope things will be better inside of court from now on? Hmm, "company and assurance". These two words may not mean much, but they are the key to fix our problem? Hope so. By the way, the draw is on wed/thur or something. I think i said by monday we'll know. Apologise for the inaccuracy of info. Hah, zhiyee was still like saying, "Hope we don't tio shuqun can liao!" -.- DIAO~ We already got them what. Wah she super sotong man! I think i should catch up on some sleep man. Tired. Oh my......... I'm so tired! Super super super TIREDdddddd~ It's like, tired until my legs go all numb. Haiyo, and it's only the first day at school and training after that. I'm not used to it yet, unlike last time. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa. My classroom. Okay, it's sandwiched between dionne's and chinyee's class. Aww. Hah, confirm no peace! Hahah. And YAY, my FT is still ms lim (: Heng man. Had form class and an hour of recess! So shiok, i love recess. -.- Hah. Then had some briefing by tiger. After school, went straight to indoor sports hall to 'book' the court. Hah, cos bboys was having training too, so had to be kiasu a bit la (: Then jessica teo came! Hah, memories eh? Heh. She came to take pictures with me, err something wrong la she! Haha. Then went 7-eleven before starting training at 2. Train train train till 7plus? Then my buddy setter... Hmm, shall not say it. But hey, cheer up okay! We went out of school, while the rest was still inside. When we reached, it was like, LOCKED. Then yuanteng came out of nowhere. Hah, we were trying to figure out how to go out la~ Hah, yuanteng wanted to clib over the gate, but she climbed back when she was halfway through -.- WTH la! Haha, so i showed them how it was done (: I climbed over. Haha. They followed suit, but...... Guess what?? Suddenly a man with a van came to open the gate -.- WAHLAO EH. HAHAHA, ji dan gao! Okay, we could have just waited awhile more for that guy to appear eh? Hah. Oh no, i'm so tired. And there's friendly match tmr morning. With SMU. At nine? Wahhhhhhhhh, somebody save me! Hah. HAPPY NEW YEAR! 2009 is finally here... Wah, 1st Jan 09. [090909 -> My passport expiry date] -.- So random, i know :D Haha. Woke up today with a positive mind. Told myself, everything's got to change. Like they say, put aside the old and bring in the new(stuff). Okay, I said that. Don't know why, but i'm currently in a very good mood (: Heh heh. Happy. Why? I told you i don't know! Hmmmmmmm. But i like this. School tmr, well not exactly. March back. Hah, ayam's team plan is TOTALLY ayam -.- Ayam only! Zzzzz. Haha. Think, I'm going get a new form teacher :( Since ms lim don't take sec4s? Haiyo, only my class change... Sian. I don't want to get some weird-ass FT please. And our classrooms i guess. I want to get the farrrrrrr end one :D Release at 12.30pm. TRAINING in the afternoon, should be after lunch i guess? West Zone in 4trainings time. Only 4. Sense the urgency? And by monday, we'll all know our draw. Hmmmmm. But then again, i'd rather not know until the last min. Like what farah wanted. Maybe should ask junhao keep it to himself first? Hmmmm. I don't want to think so far (: Let's take one match at a time, okay? Remember how we did it the last time? Let's do exactly that! By the way, since it's January, February's coming! Hahah. Don't worry, i'm not trying to imply anything :D I need a change. I need a breather. I need to get outta here! |
