Hmmm. I'm thinking again. (Being me-.- I think alot)

Hai, was just wondering. Life isn't exactly all that sweet and 'sugary'. For now, for myself at least, i figure secondary school isn't that bad. Well, FOR NOW. But then again, i guess the world out there is pretty scary eh? Hmm. The problems that we face in school can't be worse. Fear? If you ask me, i can't deny flatly that i'm totally not scared of the world out there, but i'm certainly not staying in 'here' forever. I want to explore. I want to make the world mine... Okay, bullshit. Haha.

Hmm. I wonder what would become of me in.. let say, 5-8years to come? i will be 21, 24.. Wow. It would really be great if i'm given a chance to do what i like.

I remember my late grandma telling me to study hard.. She said it would be an advantage. (like duh) I was just a kid then you know. Didn't know what she meant. I mean, as a kid, you would imagine yourself as a successful person in years to come, drive a porsche car or something. Yet, our actions seem to be contradicting.. We neglect our studies, and go on doing other things. Totally wasting time. Completely ignoring the link between ambitions and commitment to studies. But i remember this part so vividly. I will never forget when i told her, i'd study hard so that i could drive her in my car. For her to live with me. Wow. That was my motivation. Somehow, i kind of lost it. Now, even though she's gone, i'll pick myself up.

By the way, i know there aren't many who read this blog (all the better), but i just want to express my gratitude to those who believed in me. Even when i screwed up, or messed my life big time, or 'heck care' your assignments, you still believe that i can do it. You guys fought for me, i know. Thanks for making me feel hopeful.

Like i said, if i were to **** to sc, i'm not farashazreen.