Today, was a nightmare that i couldn't wake up of.
For history to repeat itself twice like this, i am sure i'd sever all ties with myself if i were to screw up again. Teammates were there to back me up today. Am very thankful for that. I apologise for letting you guys down and making all of you felt so helpless.

Truth is, I was scared. I was completely not on form, and the opponent obviously wasn't making my day any better. For once in my three-four years of playing and competing, i dare say that i was overwhelmed by fear today.

Frankly, a lot of things went through my mind as the game was progressing. One of which was, the moment when we had lost to cedars two years back, at the exact same court. I couldn't help but feel so helpless and traumatised by that sudden flashback. No matter how hard i tried to forget them, they just kept coming back. I was scared. I was scared.

On top of that, i did the exact same thing that i did during U16, that had caused us to get kicked out of the first round even. Damn, the feeling sucked. No, it sucks.

I was lucky that this didn't cost a place in top4. Today, i finally realised that all this while, i was the only one who had lost faith in me. I will not let this happen again.