Waiting for jessica to get her ass online..........

I don't think i can wait for her that long. Am tired :(
But, today's been a great day!

Well, because i got to see all my best teachers smiling :)
And even though i started the day a little off, it still worked out in the end. Even better actually.
Hah.
Had ACES in the morning, some martial arts aerobics. Quite fun eh, but that lingying kept turning and staring at me, so a bit paiseh -.-
Then the P cut the cake, and we went for a break. And jessica told me something. HAH. Didn't know why i couldn't accept it at first. I know i don't have the right to object, but i felt a little betrayed, you know. Cos i thought we had a 'deal' to stay single and i thought she clean forgotten our pact. But, realised that she didn't, and she really cared about how i'd react to it? I was touched.

Had some concert. And MISS ALICE LIM WAS 'CROWNED' THE MOST CARING TEACHER! yes-uh, love her to the max man! M2's treasure ^^


Had CIP later that morning- newspaper collection.
At the gate, i saw ms tay! :) Gave her a hug^^ And i know that i'll miss her :( alot. alot. alot...
CIP was, rather fun, as previous years though i got rejected by an uncle. Sad case man. HAH. I must've have disrupted his perfect dream or something! Or he's was probably doing SOMETHING. *ahem*
So yeah, the stacks of old newspapers and clothes that we gathered weren't as much as the last year. I forgot how many kilos we collected...
Yeah, gathered everyone, presented the gifts (from our hearts) to both miss lim and ms kong:) Took class photos too!
Aww, ms lim and ms kong wanted to cryyyyyyyyyyyyy.............

I was touched. Honestly. Seriously, despite the initial unhappiness, i love my class man. M2, to me, is the most wonderful and nicest group of people that i've ever met in my life. It's a blessing to be part of this class. My 16th year- the most memorable one.


Went back to school with renxian, to take yeekhang's wallet. But ended up, helping out to sort the newspapers from the pile of clothings. Trucks ad trucks filled with them! Crazy. Hahaha, but we did it! (though i slowed down towards the end)
Caught a movie, with renxian, sandy and yeekhang. "THE PROPOSAL"
I wanted to take a nap actually, ended up talking to rx. About stuff. Both pleasant, or otherwise.
Hahaha. Okay la, he passed my 'test'.



Hmm. Given a choice, i wouldn't have spent today any other way. For me, i truly, truly enjoyed this year's T day. Cos i know, it's my last, as a BPian. I am going to miss this. I am going to miss the teachers so much. Such real teachers, you can only find them here. I hope, these people will continue to inspire the lives of future bpians. To be honest, i don't want to leave, because as soon as i have to, i won't have the pillars of support anymore.

Can we always stay as bpians?
Why must all good things come to an end?

Hmmmmmmm.
Well, i guess the best place to spill is here, where strangers happen to 'hop' by..
Hmm. I think i'm losing it already. As hard as i try to wriggle out of the UN-happy mood, i just can't. Something is bothering me, and it's obvious.
My appetite is long gone, i am stuck feeling nauseated for the past week and i can't sleep well.. Yes, i can 'sleep', as in close my eyes for bed, but i could be lying there for hours and still feel tired as soon as i open my eyes. It's as though i was onky there for minutes.

Used to think that this wasn't stress. Used to believe that i could pull through... But with this constant throbbing headache every night, i could well be on the verge of a nervous breakdown.

I know that i'm just scaring myself by typing these in words, but strangely, i feel a little better, somehow.

For now, i have to stick to squeezing lemon into my drinking water, eat half the portion for meals(even though it was already pathetic to start with), massage my head before going to bed........
And the list goes on.


I think i'm pathetic, as in, the state that i'm in now.
And it's not only because of the Os... Something is seriously bothering me.





I screwed my prelims.
Although i know that the goal i set is too high, too unrealistic for now, too demanding... even if i lose myself after this, i don't care. This is the only thing worth fighting for, for now...
There's too much at stake. I cannot lose it just yet.

Tough. Difficult. Hard. A million miles away. A never-ending pursuit...
But is it IMPOSSIBLE?

Nooooooooooooooooooooooo. If he can do it, i can too! And i'll do it all the same.
Sometimes, i wonder if knowing you, has caused me to put more pressure on myself, or... No. I believe, your achievements should be a motivation, for me.

The things you've accomplished were once, yes, once-thought impossible. Like, scoring full marks for a humanities paper. That's crazy. But you've done it. Several times at that.
Hmmm.

I guess, sometimes, when you have a clear goal and a never-say-die attitude, you can achieve the once-thought impossible.
Hearing about your failures make me look at mine at a different angle.

I'm actually astounded by how much more, this one person has gained as compared to his peers, just by the few extra qualities that he bear.

Thanks man. You're an inspiration.

OH MY GOSH.
I seem to have added some weird-ass on facebook. Real freaky sia! Scare me until half dead man.
Make my account so lagggggggggggg. Eeeyerh. Shouldn't have added. Grrrrrr. Must be some virus.
Haiyo. Whoever reading this, just don't add that person. See la! i anyhow accept then become like this. Shitttttttttttt.
Anyway, tmr's my last paper.
Fine uh physics students, finally you guys get a day off!

Hah, would probably give out flyers tmr? Or not. M2's blocks are very far away~ Near southview primary. Why? Why so far? zzzzzzzz. Okay, got to go now.

Haaaaaaaaaaaaaa. It just keeps going~!
I'm tired man. Just got home a hour ago. Totally wasted the afternoon. Plus, my song..... CMI. I think i'll just give it up bah.

No inspiration.

Anyway, had both chemistry and biology paper2 this morning. Okay bah.. I guess.
The bio paper was killer, cos it made me write super fast. Okay i was scribbling. But make sense uh :)
Tired sio.
okay, i need to go.


NO SCHOOL FOR ME TMR!

Was the last candidate. Yes, i had to wait for two and a half hours for my turn lah. Zzz.
And i was the only M2 amongst the P1s. So bored.
Was sittig there, constantly changing my 'pose' every minute! Hahah.
Ad i was sitting at the same table as this guy(shall ot be named). It was damn obvious that he is an outcast of his class. So sad eh. But he sonded kind of gay :x Wah, i'm so evil. But i'm being honest here man.

So, started reading books. It was the library, you know, books everywhere. Biology- it was a borrrrrrrring book. It made bio seemed just pieces of facts put together using stapler -.- not literally.

It was damn cold too.I kept walking around.
Went to the toilet and was escorted. hah.
Mrs Hoe was funny. She came with clips and pinned up the girls 'stray' fringe. Hah, i was the guai one :)

Time passed so slowly......
I think i did all that i could do i the library. Pushed in all the chairs, arrange all the books like damn neatly like some anally retentive person. FINALLY, at 5.25pm my turn came.


Saw the passage and picture. Doable i guess.

Oral turned out fine, i think. I said "laaaaaaah" thrice -.- But both examiners were friendly i guess. Okay, the lady didn't agree with me at some point and the guy closed his eyes throughout. What's up with that?

Talked till my mouth wet really dry. Was trying to salivate my lips constantly till there weren't any saliva left. For a moment, i stared at their bottled water, tempted to say, "Sorry, can i have a sip?" -.- Doomed.

I'm going mad.
From a sore throat, to a fever and running nose to a bad cough and funny voice.
Can't take it anymore! Over-heating, but i'm not running a temperature currently. Well, at least that's what the thermometer indicates.
I was so close to fainting just now i swear.
Like, total, circuit failure? Gahh.

And did i mention that i finally succumb to the sickness and went to consult the doctor this afternoon. He told me my symptoms were those of H1N1, but since i'm not running he high tmeperature, he dismissed the possibility of me having it. Well, FOR NOW.
And i totally skipped EL olevel orals! Damn it. I'm so going to be the last candidate for tomorrow's batch. Let's just hope that i don't start repeating the same exact words that the other students would use and bore the examiners to death!

(omg, i' sweating profusely as i type this.)

This is insane. I hate falling sick at such a crucial juncture! Gahhhhhh.
Actually, come to think of it,i've always had something cropped up at the last minute whenever it's the oral exams! Like the last four years, while waitig for my turn during the PSLE orals, i had bad stomachache. Now what about that?! Madness.

I think it's my body's way of indicating nervous breakdown! Hell.
Hah, to those who are thinking about how mad i am for skippig orals just like that, don't worry, cos i have MC and I've informed the teacher in-charge. Thanks god for the reshedule!

Oh, and lastly, to those who are receiving(OH DAMN. They received it already -.-) their MT results, good luck!

Wish me good health :|

Blah blah blah. Whatever man. You're such a complicated woman.
Gahh.

My throat is slowly recovering............ It's now a 24-hour mission to get my voice back. MUST okay.
Oral tomorrow. And omg, i have dark eye rings. I better sleep now.
No appetite. No mood.
Shall sleep. Or, shoud i _______??? YES YES YES........
:)

Hahha, honourable mention? Haiyo.

OMG. I can just fall flat somewhere............ Flu bug. Sian.
At a time like this. Nice one uh.
I guess, the ss-devastation hit me hard this time :( Hai.
I refuse to see the doctor, cos i don't want MC. There's like maths maths papers this world coming week, not to mention my EL Os oral this wed.... :(
I'm not trying to shirk social responsibility.
Okay, fine. I'm stubborn.

The worst thing about getting sick is when you mucus starts dripping as you try to do workkk. Efff.

Am feeling good because of yesterday. NOT the ss exam okay. That made me feel damn terrible :(
Thanks uh Qiqi and irna!

Oh my god.
Please don't tell me that my vision's getting bad. Noooo.
It's still blurred now. Stupid.

And today's paper. Hai, don't even want to comment. In any case, my heart wasn't with me during the 2-hour duration. Argggggh. Been lamenting since 5.15pm. Gahh.
Told my mum about it. She didn't say anything :(
Someone, i need youuuuuuuuuuuuu.

I need a pillar of support.
Sometimes, i wonder how i managed to climb thus high, when there wasn't anything behind me at all. All along, it was only me, perseverance, and will. Two of them had left. I'm left with 'me'.

Oh yeah, i told my mum about my prelims. She said it wasn't important. HAH. Thanks eh. Hahha. I FEEL ALL BETTER. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. Where's naggy nag naggggggggggggggggg???????

Happy Birthday Singapore~!
:)

Proud to be a Singaporean, you know ;)
Hah. Anyway, spent the afternoon at sembawang park. Barbecue ^^
Just 4hours, and i've turned two shades darker, believe it or not! Suck eh. Screw you la, melanin!
Now i'm like chaotar already la~

Wahhhhh. Tired ttm. I want to sleeeeeeeeeep.
Oh yeah, i'm going to be done with chapter11 by tomorrow! Woohoo. And for ss, sad to say, only done with healthcare part1. Die. Die. Die. -------------------------------------------

Will get it done soon. Now, i'm bloated! Eat so many wings. Going to puke uh. Gahhhhhh.



When can i ever change? Hai.

My mum just stood up on me on a wonderful Saturday :(
I'm hurt okay!
Hahha. She went off to work, but we'd agreed today's going to be picnic day. Sian. Gahh.

Anyway, woke up at 5plus to cover chapter10:Respiration. Not completed yet la. Am still trying to figure out the inestigations cos I KNOW I WROTE THE ANSWERS SOMEWHERE BUT I CAN'T RECALL WHERE. Stu.Pid.
So now i'm lost cos i don't know what to do today, since i got stood up -.-

Oh yeah, I SLEPT FRO 12HOURS straight. Like pig uh. But seriously, was damn tired after yesterday's game, believe it or not. I guess, i'm old already :(
Sucker.

Gahh.

Consistency, confidence and luck.

Sometimes, i just want to tell everyone how blessed I am.
Well, not that my life's perfect, but it's exactly because of the imperfection that you learn to cherish what you have?

Hmm. Today- not feeling too good. Nauseated. A little dizzy.
I'm not pregnant -.-

Hah. Last night study before prelims. As usual, crapped with jojo, ade and cookoobird. HAHA. I don't know why, it's fun calling her that! Hahah. Omg, lingying still as crappy as ever. She is obsessed with some pt coach in school. HAH. Okay la, QUITE HAMSOM.

Oh tiger gave us potato chips.

I'm tired man. But yay, i managed to cover chapter9 of bio.
Satisfaction.

Tomorrow's going to be the national day celebration. Yay, will be playing with bgirls too. But hope i can squeeze some time to revise :)
Yes i can.

Eeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee. I agree, my batch isn't as motivated as ben's and demas'. Or are we? Nah. That's why, i should push myself harder. Cos now, i'm not convinced that i'm doing enough. ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ.

Okay, days without a phone are over. Okay, it was just one day.
Hah. Yeah, spare de. Okay la, i'm not one who bother about the kind of phones i use. That's why my phone also a bit............ Yeahhhh.

ZZZZ.

Well, anyway, bio skill3 wasn't that bad! Hahah, it was quite enjoyable actually:) Why? Cos i am long-winded, and it doesn't take much for me to write out such reports :D So, the conclusion is, LONG-WINDED IS GOOD.

Hah. Freeeeeeeak. I'm slacking. Bleh.

Back.
Did add.maths with jessica at food junction. Saw wenqi and clinton there, studying. Wow, all my classmates like to study secretly -.-
Zzzz.
Anyway, after a long time of not owing homework, i owe ms lim a speech :( Yes, that speech that i've been working on. Stupid la, break my record. Zzz.


Oh yeah, my bio class fell out with ms aza today. It was, ... Okay, let's just say both parties were at fault. But i guess this experience changed the impression of many of her. Well, i'm still quite neutral though. Just wished she had listened to our explanation? Okay, i admit, i was responsible for not doing her work too. But never would i shelve bio, thinking that it's going to be a sure-A1. Well, how could i? When i was awaken 'from the dead' by her in the first place. I owe my confidence for bio to her, so i can't be so ungrateful. Hai, just hope everything will be all right. I don't want to have a teacher who is detached from us. That wouldn't be pleasant, would it? Hmmmm. Bio SPA tmr then.

Oh yeah, just to let you people know (if anyone come across this at all), that my phone officially died on me. So i guess, i would be without a phone for a few days. May be able to revive it once or twice, but it won't be for long. So, until i get a new phone or a spare one, don't bother wasting your money to contact me. If there's anything, drop me an email or talk during msn yeah.

Gahh. I hate days without phone.

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Prelims' next week! :)
I'm waiting in full anticipation. I'm all set. Come on.
Hah.

Currently hooked on 'My Girl' again. Hahh, cos it was aired on tv, and yesterday was the last episode.
And to know my definition of handsome, look at lee dong wook. That's handsome okay! Hahhah.

Anyway, working on my speech. It's english homework la, not for some political election -.- Hah.
All the three options are good eh, must count on my reasoning---
Yay, monday tmr. The start of the weeeeeeeeek. Once again ^^

Lagggggggg.
A lot of thigs to do today. All thanks to me stoning yesterday. Even if one day, i were to turn into an inanimate object, no one would notice a difference -.-
Hahh. Zzzzz.

Okay la, got to go back to work. Have a great day people.