Hmmmmmmm.
Well, i guess the best place to spill is here, where strangers happen to 'hop' by..
Hmm. I think i'm losing it already. As hard as i try to wriggle out of the UN-happy mood, i just can't. Something is bothering me, and it's obvious.
My appetite is long gone, i am stuck feeling nauseated for the past week and i can't sleep well.. Yes, i can 'sleep', as in close my eyes for bed, but i could be lying there for hours and still feel tired as soon as i open my eyes. It's as though i was onky there for minutes.

Used to think that this wasn't stress. Used to believe that i could pull through... But with this constant throbbing headache every night, i could well be on the verge of a nervous breakdown.

I know that i'm just scaring myself by typing these in words, but strangely, i feel a little better, somehow.

For now, i have to stick to squeezing lemon into my drinking water, eat half the portion for meals(even though it was already pathetic to start with), massage my head before going to bed........
And the list goes on.


I think i'm pathetic, as in, the state that i'm in now.
And it's not only because of the Os... Something is seriously bothering me.





I screwed my prelims.
Although i know that the goal i set is too high, too unrealistic for now, too demanding... even if i lose myself after this, i don't care. This is the only thing worth fighting for, for now...
There's too much at stake. I cannot lose it just yet.