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ACJC Wah. Damn high just now. Ha! Laughed like hell in the morning that i was exhausted by 5pm. Darn it! Tired sia. Okay, night! And the bottomline: The Search for Durian in the wee morning FAILED :( Disappointing! :( Real busy. And with me being main runner, the guys had to help me out. Sorry guys!
After closing, we went for supper. Should definitely hang out often :) Gossiped. Heh. Kat and nash went home, while nam and i wandered off in search of our NR. Chatted throughout, and i enjoyed talking to her :) Definitely one of those people i feel comfortable with. Heh. AND THEN, we felt like eating DURIAN. Wah, she's damn on okay! Not many people would crave for durian at night like meeeeeee. HA. And we really did walk all over to find a decent durian stall or something. Walked from bugis, all the way to chinatown/outram park. I swear we appeared drunk at one point, laughing like mad! Hahhaa. Will certainly miss that when school starts and gets hectic.
Hmmm. Should i help out in sembawang? Heh. The 27th is coming. Totally laughed my head off during work. One of these days i'm really going to faint cos i laugh too much! Ha! Kat + rachman = Totally hilarious~ And i realised i respect kat alot. I enjoy being around her, because she simplifies things, and making fun of nothing at all. I've got to admit, the advice that she offered me would last me a long time. A very, long time. Don't underestimate this 21-year-old. Heh. Okay, INJECTION TMR! And working at night. Will i die? Haha! Won't la.... hor? Hmmmmmmmmmmm. Back, from work. I swear i'm exhausted to the max, and i don't understand why this is so when i only worked for night shift. Heh. Well, kat's off today, so that means, NO FUN :( Hahaha. Came down at 4.30, cos fiza told me to come down early since her break was 4-5pm. Upon reaching, saw khai's sis, kai, at the bar. I swear she got that "khai"-face! hahahah! And i pulled a damn lame joke by calling khai Kak Yah since that was how kai addressed her, through sms that is. Me and fiza laughed like hell, with me rolling on the floor~ HA, BUT IT WAS REALLY FUNNY I SWEAR. Ha. Started work soon after and Long couldn't stop being so horny with me! Grr. Can't stand it! And i won't elaborate on this. Haha. Suddenly it seemed as though so much had to be done during closing. Ended around 11? That's late already, considering i started to clean early just now. Now so tired. Chatted with nam on msn, and she made me WAVE HI to fiza, who is sitting behind me (asleep now). That woman huh~ Yay, working full tmr. There's kat and no Long :D Yes man! And i became the highest paid part timer after khai! HEHE. Haaaaaa. Woke up with a headache, enough to make me go back to sleep again. Darn, i need to drink more water next time~ Oh anyway, i created a twitter account. Heh. Follow? Hmmm. Starting work at 6 later. But i wonder how khai's doing, training her sis for the job! hah. Sometimes, i type the things that i really mean, but ended up pressing the backspace. Just to let you know, there was something more here. I only erased it. Hi. I'm back! Hmmmmmmmmmm. I woke up early in the morning with the intention of helping out with the filleting, but turned out there wasn't much to be done anyway. Still, i managed to make myself useful by helping khai with opening. Heh. Things turned sour when kat and long quarrelled over some matters. Was stuck in the middle and i got a little pissed off cos someone's head was too big, preventing him from admitting to his own mistakes. I mean, if you'd just apologise, people can easily forgive, forget and move on. Why, the hell, did you make matters worse by implicating other matters?? Stupid. Totally dumb. Hah. I hate it when things like this happen. They just ruin the whole atmosphere, don't they? Irritating. Anyway, managed to convince april to let me off at 4pm, instead of 5. I didn't know i could reason out that well! Hahaha. And so, caught up with fiza, ahmad and friend at tongseng. Off to the movies at Cathay. Chilled at macs for some ice cream, waiting for the movie to start, 7.20pm. Over all, The Blind Side was great! Worth watching, since it's the only movie which i managed to stay up through without sleeping a wink! Hehh. Went straight to Holland Village right after. Walked around and mad left at 11? Yeah, fiza, friend and i went to chill awhile. Stomach was bloated with youknowwhat, but still, finished it ;) As always :D Cabbed. Sent friend back first. Finally, home. Darn it. Another after-midnight ride! Grrrrrr. But hey, i had fun! :)) All that ever matters~ Woooohoooooooooooo~! Suddenly so high. Heh. I'm actually a happy kid. Well, i'm ony 16! (okay, should stop saying that lest it becomes a habit!) Hmmmmmmmmmmm. Watched tv, ate, slept, and lazed~ I miss the fishies. Okay, it's only been a few day of offs and i can't stand it already! Zzzz. Darn bored. But YAY, i'm gonna shop tmr, before work. Yess mannnnnn. Heh, and till this point of time, i'm still thinking if i should rebond my hair. Been thinking about this for years already! Like, seriously. Heh. There's a lot of people i'm missing right now :( I miss my team, the M2s, the fishies, ayammmmmmm,............... And the list goes on. Hai. I want to meet up with these guys! Before school starts hopefully.. And i know i've been indulging in self-pity and 'emo'-ing the past few posts.... Okay, let's be gay now :P Just learnt that there'll be two outings this week. One, M2 BBQ (AGAIN?!?!?) and, 01's ECP(not ERP HOR!) outing~ Changed my mind. I'm going! :D See you guys sooooon. As for my team, let's meet up too! OOOORKAYYYYYYYYY??? Hmm. I know i've said it before, but i'll say it again. Nothing, absolutely NOTHING, beats good family ties. Sometimes, the simple things in life are taken for granted so much till they're forgotten. Ultimately, you lose your head. And i don't want that.
Oh no, have i really become emo? Hah. I don't think so. I've just had more time to think. And i better stop, or else i'd really become depressed, again.
Thinking of shopping. But sad eh, alone meh?? Tsk. I want to go work. Can't wait for work tmr. Oh damn. I hate my off days. Been lazing around the whole day, watching tv, eat, sleep. Hmmmmmmmmm. I want to go chalet again!
Somebody told me that i became more introverted. Perhaps, i just can't be bothered le huh? tsk. Is this considered emo?? Tsk. If it is, then i really can't be bothered. Heh.
I can't wait to get back to where i left. Two years............ Two years! When i get into a new school, i want to start all over again. EAT, EAT, EAT! Woke up early in the morning to complete the JAE thing. Took me some time to finalise my decision. Finally done with it! Felt like an assignment. Hah. Was supposed to meet yati and nam at 0ne, vivo. But as usual, we being the fishies ended up coming at two instead- all late. Hah! Basically, their job-hunt. Vivo and suntec.
Yati went to work around 5? We went to eat food. Then island creamery :)) Now fatter than before. Die. Stupid. I don't like to think about all this crap--->>> JAE
Okay, like how i managed to 'randomly' select my choices of schools 4years back, i'll do the same now. Probably.
But shit, too sleepy. Caught avatar with kat and nash after work, after i MIRACULOUSLY knocked off at 8.30pm. HA, awesome right! nyeeeeh. Sad to say, kat and i slept through the movie. Too boring -.- Off tmr. Career Fair with yati and nam.
But first, this thing has to be completed. The world, as we know it, is round. Rather often than not, it's inevitable to run into individuals with peculiar personalities. Yeahyeahyeah~ But i still find them disturbing. Oh why, why do they behave in such weird manner! tsk. Whatever la. Don't even know why i'm rambling about this. Sooooooooo boreddddddddddd. Can't wait to head to work. Hi. Yesterday was the collection of results day. Boring sia (because i was one of those glaring at those evil dudes doing the BP cheer when everyone else was feeling so sad already) Yes, have gotten over the fact that none of the M2 buddies went up on stage. Nor any of the volleyball mates. Quite shocking eh, cos i expected some of them to go up. heh. Got my $200 cheque and it was the happiest thing that happened yesterday. Tsk, received results in order of index number, and i was ten. So left the moment i got the slip and book in my hands, shoving them in my bag and walked off. Sorry to crystal who tried to ask, but i waled away too soon. In any case, i hadn't seen a thing. The moment i stepped out of the gate, i took a peek. WTH. The first thing i saw was my EL grade, which was UNBELIEVABLE. -.- who the hell gets a ** for EL man! Got super high already, so i called nam. That, was when i realised that my worries were sort of uncalled for. Heh. Was screaming as i held the phone in my hands, ignoring all the curious stares! And i didn't get the whipping cream cos i was too shocked that i didn't know what i was doing -.- Texted my mum/sis, received a lot of calls from friends, and ms tay. She still remembers me eh, that's cool. HA. Headed to nam's house. Screamed/wailed/blahblahblah. Tried to call cheryl but couldn't reach her. Was quite worried for her, cos she didn't pick up. Should've used my own phone and maybe, just maybe, she would. I'm sorry i wasn't there for you..... Watched touch rugby at ngee ann poly. Nam, your friend is too wild for me to handle! hahaha.
Don't bother asking, cos i won't enlighten you. I didn't want it to turn out this way. I like your company, and i'm always trying my best to spend time with you. Even till now, i'm glad that i'm working here. Even though it gets really tough at times, i take comfort in knowing, that at least i can make you look good. I try my best in everything that i do because i don't want to lose out. But, not to you. I'm sorry that i made you feel inferior, but you flatter me by stating so. I miss the times when you stood up for me. Labels: even though you're there, i can't feel you anymore., Sometimes I swear i was dead beat by the time i stepped out of the shower last night! Tsk. Exhausted seh, but it was worth it, since i got to spend time with good friends :) Hmmmmmmmmm. Let's see. On thursday, was working full shift. Prepared staff meal with Nam, and we decided to call it 'Putang Inamo'!! HAHA, it's vulgar actually, but we just couldn't remember the real name laa (which is in tagalog). Heh. More catchy right, this name *raises eyebrows* After closing, trained down to Pasir Ris. With shikin (till kembangan or something). Cabbed down to Costa Sands, and walked down to the room. Peeked through the door and saw a qarter of the group playing mahjong. Heh. It was then that i learned that the rest has gone for night-cycling :( Missed out on the fun :( Stomach growling. I realised that i haven't eaten cos i rushed down to the chalet. Felt quite shitty realising that there was only instant noodles since i had already missed the barbeque, the night before :( Pestered them to order macs, but none did. And so, asked the cycling clique to help us takeaway. Was texting nam and cheryl while waiting, and i thought i was going to die. Moreover, nam was telling me how full and bloated she was, while i was starving! :( Sadded. Dozed off. Don't think i slept at all cos i was constantly checking if they had come back. But no. Waited in vain. They came back at 4/5am. And no macs :( Super sadded sia. Heeeeehhh. They played random games which i didnt feel like playing. Cycled to 7eleven to get ***** and **** in the morning -.- By the time i left i was totally shagged. Left with rx. Dropped by the outlet, and felt like helping out. Helped nash with opening and ate for free -.- heh. Walked around, and waited for cheryl to come. That woman took forever to come! hahah. Okay, basically, i was laughing and laughing. Okay WE were laughing like mad cos of everything we did. ZZZ. Spent money like it's water by cabbing to some stupid place that turned out so to be a disappointment, to me. Heh. Waste money sia. okay, decided to catch a movie at Iluma. Saved Alvin :) :) :) HOHOHO, i swear i'm still laughing at what we did, and walking out on the rest of the characters -.- And and and, spent time having decent converstaion with cher. And i found out something which i seriously thought i shouldn't have. Caught The Fourth Kind, and i found it disturbing- "In the end, what you choose to believe, is yours to decide." -.- Got shocked a few times. Damn damn damn. okay, nam cancelled our plans. So going back to sleep. Working later. /edited: Okay, plans of making panna cotta still on. My pay is in. Like finally. But, i could no longer feel that excitement. I guess, it's just another target that i've reached, and it's time to move on to the next 'challenge'. I know for now, that i'm not working for money. And if i could, i would stay on with this job. It has brought me so much joy; it's really hard to let go. Can things stay this way forever? It hurts. Hmmmm. Work was all about cleaning up today, since we were doing housekeeping. Nonetheless, it was still fun, with all the dumb laughter and random comments. Haha, kat was around what! It's only right :) Hai. Been rather troubled over the results thing, to the extent where i even told kat that i felt like working there, and not study. And of course, she stressed that i should study. I respect her alot because she has always been looking out for me. And so has a few others. That's why it's so hard to leave now that a month of vacation is up. Really don't feel like leaving :( I will miss kat's laughter and comments, not forgetting the way she showers concern for us, nash's short fuse and her thickskinned nature (Ganda! -.-) and, to be continued...... ha. So sad that it'll have to end. hai. But it's alright. I'll never forget them. I'll remember this place, for it's one of the warmest place on earth. Yawwwwwwwwwwwwn. Am damn tired now. After all that laughing-till-i-teared. Working with kat is always filled with crazy moments! Even though she likes bullying me :( Haha, i don't mind~ Okay, my sis is so noisy tonight. Kept on rambling and rambling. No, she still is. Talkative -.-
Erhhhh. It's already 1am. Have to sleep now. Going to drop by school in the morning beofre work to collect my money. Yay. Night night. Currently chatting with Cheryl on msn. Really miss gl-ing this woman eh. She hasn't been working, so yeah.
Ha! Okay, tell me. Isn't it weird that some people can just click when they hardly know each other? When some other friends whom you see everyday remains as pure acquaintances or just mere strangers to you? ha. I find it really weird. Okay, maybe it's just me. But i really enjoy meeting people who i can just laugh my ass off over nothing at all! After all, you just need to be willing to open, and you'll survive ;)
Okay, i'm just updating cos that woman told me to. Ugh. Currently feeling restless, thinking about YOUKNOWWHAT. Shit. I don't want to move on. I want to stay 16 forever. I want to live a simplistic life like this forever. Suddenly, i don't feel like running after that one, only dream. I don't care if i were to hold a job like this forever. Tsk. Okay, have to admit, the anxiety is killing me. Okay, enough with the results day shit. Hmmmmmmmmm. Actually, come to think of it, i'm going to be 1K richer by the end of this coming week. Can't wait. Heh. Kat & nash asked me out for dinner on wed. I wonder if andrea's willing to swop schedule with me. I want to go..... hahahaha. Seriously, hanging out and crapping with them is like damn funny okay! Hmmmm. Working everyday next week. Except Friday. Yay. Going to dine in with fiqah :) It feels good to have made new friends who never fails to brighten your dull days~ hahah. Kay, have been sleeping and eating rubbish the whole day. I smell fried chicken. Okay, tata~ Fish you. "Didn't get hooked." ---Classic line, or what! Wah, am damn tired, seriously. Been working, alot. Don't know why i'm still awake right now. This feels like a hangover. Damn it.
It's like, the 3rd of January already. Suddenly, i was reminded of results day. I'm not trembing with fear. I'm just anxious. It's already the 2nd of January. A start of another year. Haah, how fast the year has passed, leaving behind yet unforgettable memories. It's, kind of sad, when you back, and all the things that you have done, or not done. Hah. It's has been a great 2009 for me, personally. No regrets whatsoever. Really ;)
I believe 2010 has with it lots more wonderful things to come. And with all the challenges and obstacles, i hope i'll stay strong in my pursuit of becoming a better person.
Haaah. Today, i realised how selfless one can be. Such, sensible thinking. Such, sacrifice..... Okay, my heart sank when i learned about how much one is willing to give. And give. Not expecting anything in return. Hah. I don't think i'll ever forget this experience, working here. |
