Heh. Eating that GioGio thing for late lunch. Zzz. It's making me feel sick.

Hai, to think i could easily be swayed. Where are those principles that i had always stick by to? Feelig so cheap now. SCREW YOU ***

I guess, today shall be the last time i'm ever coming home this early. Timed prac will resume tmr. Well, today actually. But yeah, due to some reasons...

Kind of looking forward to friday's night study. And unlike ly, i'm not going cos of free food.
Hahah.

Okay, got to go finish up literature. And hopefully, read up on bio.

Ms Lim's testimonial for me made my day :)

Wah I think i really hate doing heymath.
My left eye totally sore and red after two tests. And my nose suddenly filled with eeky mucus.

Eyerh, heymath got 'virus'!

Screw this thing. Going to have breakfast.

Pain uhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

Yesterday. Wanted to train but they weren't training. Okay, so apparently i was told that theschool closed down for this whole week due to H1N1. But jessica told me she has been in school every day. Contradictions.

Well, anyway, glad that i'm finally going to school. For ss. I think i'll stay till quite late, to finish some work, unless i get chased out, that is.
Most probably not bah.

I found a new way to relieve stress :)

Oh my, i'm having more and more anxiety as the day passes. Olevels are getting real near. It's really killing me.......................

I'd better not pass out on the actual day.

Aww, for those who have been hoping that school holidays will be extended, too bad ay. Unless you have travelled overseas.

School to be open on mon as scheduled.

Zzz. No feeling.

Hai.

Labels: afraid

The problem lies within me.
It's so fk frustrating to have to feel so lousy everytime i stare at those papers. I know, deep inside this isn't what i had in mind.

People go through this in later parts of their life, while i'm so fking irritated by myself even before successfully clearing the second hurdle.

I know, i can never rely on anyone for help. I'm done for.

Last week of holidays.

Honestly, i can't wait for school to reopen cos i'll be made to work to the brink of insanity. Well, that kind of life beats what i have now right. Hanging like some low-life creature. After graduation, going to earn some bucks and party it out.

Or perhaps i'd leave the "party it out" part. Earn real money before another school term starts.

I really wish i am a die-hard workaholic. Cos it seems so hard to achieve (with lack of self-discipline). Must find that drive again. My fire cannot burn out so early.

Must. Work. My. Ass. Off.

Today's going to be work marathon. In school.
It's the one and only place that can drive me to get things done.

I'm getting lazy again.

Hmm, it's still undecided whether the government would extend the holidays by at east a week longer. Was in the news. Honestly, i hate school holidays. But maybe it would be good. Zzzz.

But looking at things... Hai, we'll see.
This H1N1 virus is mutating into something stronger! Damn the virus.

Hmmmm. Cancelled. Plans cancelled.

Since when do i stick to plans anyway. Gahh. Feeling lousy. Feeling out of place.
So lonely, all of a sudden. Hmm, maybe, it's cos i haven't had a 'real' school holiday before. Always had to go to school for some reasons the past three years. Never had the time to feel, you know, lonely? Hahh. And there was always someone waiting at home for me, that i kind of took that for granted? Ahh, trying to chase unhappiness away. Maybe will feel better after i press "Publish Post". Hai.

Used to think that this was the life i wanted. I mean, i know people. People know me. But, it's mere acquaintances. Only friends, and not like FRIENDS. You know what i mean? Hahh, the world is like so, plastic? Everyone wants to know you, but it's only that few who really cares you know. Sometimes, having a best friend's kind of cool too eh.

Never had one. Honestly. Never had. Maybe, maybe one? A primary school friend. But god knows where she is now. Hahh.

Perhaps, not having is really much, much better than losing.
But, this feeling's got to go.

I can't seem to concentrate with this lingering in my skull.

Labels: Emptiness.

Here i am, again.
Stretching out the batt. 9% now by the way.

Hmm. Let's talk about my life :)

So currently, i feel that i've been spending my days fruitfully. Well, i feel good. Hah.

Okay, going to sim lim today. If i'm lucky, i'll be back with a good charger. Hah.

Forgot that i haven't blog about yesterday :)

Hmm, yeah so the whole graduating cohort went for a movie yesterday- Night At The Museum2
I guess it was okay. Some parts were funny. Most of the school went. And teachers went too. The huiting that ms tay had talked about was with her. Hmmm. Oh yeah, ms lim sat with us. And i sat with a medium-sized popcorn. Couldn't finish it la.

So after the movie, we walked all the way to plaza sing, cos ms lim wanted to give us a B&J treat :) Thanks ms lim! Ended up playing games there. Took photos and i realised that everyone was trying their very best to open up.

I'm loving M2 more and more each day. I'm afraid the day we'll have to part, would be the saddest moment of my life.

But that's alright. I have memories that can last a lifetime.

So yeah, home-d at 10plus?

I had a great time. Really. Didn't know i would.

Hmm currently in the library.
Gahh, long story.

My laptop charger or do-you-call-it-adapter burst into flames -.-
Okay, exaggeration.

But it did but. And yeah, no charger = no battery = laptop can't function.
Borrowed charger from farah la. Heng she has the same kind. Zzz.

So that means you won't get to see me online for a long time. Damn it man.

Okayokay. Till next time buddies!

Had super throbbing headache last night.
I thought i was dying.

Hmmm. A lot of things on my mind currently. But i won't write it here. The feelings will only get worse. Suddenly, i can sense a negative vibe.

Nonsense.

At this point of time, it's heartwrenching to see friends and acquaintances going through pain. But it sucks not being able to do anything, but offer a word of sorry. Helplessness.

Sometimes, am i being over-ambitious? Trying to help someone else when i'm incapable of helping myself.

See la! Look at tutor. He's so happy now.
And my current tutor- i think she's going to be successful too.

Geez. Don't want to lose out.

No one's going to wait for me.

Got to be there.