Hmmmm. Cancelled. Plans cancelled.

Since when do i stick to plans anyway. Gahh. Feeling lousy. Feeling out of place.
So lonely, all of a sudden. Hmm, maybe, it's cos i haven't had a 'real' school holiday before. Always had to go to school for some reasons the past three years. Never had the time to feel, you know, lonely? Hahh. And there was always someone waiting at home for me, that i kind of took that for granted? Ahh, trying to chase unhappiness away. Maybe will feel better after i press "Publish Post". Hai.

Used to think that this was the life i wanted. I mean, i know people. People know me. But, it's mere acquaintances. Only friends, and not like FRIENDS. You know what i mean? Hahh, the world is like so, plastic? Everyone wants to know you, but it's only that few who really cares you know. Sometimes, having a best friend's kind of cool too eh.

Never had one. Honestly. Never had. Maybe, maybe one? A primary school friend. But god knows where she is now. Hahh.

Perhaps, not having is really much, much better than losing.
But, this feeling's got to go.

I can't seem to concentrate with this lingering in my skull.

Labels: Emptiness.